you fill up my senses. probably the thing i sometimes missed in my life is that someone told me that he was proud of me, who i was, who i became and what i have accomplished so far in my life. i never got disapproval from my parents but i always felt their doubts, their…
Read morehuman touch. spending my first midsummer here in finland i can still feel the bonfire’s heat on my skin, the rain that ran down my cheeks and the joy i felt surrounded by people i dare to call friends. i spent so much time last week thinking about friendships, the ones i had, have and…
Read moreon top of the world. i ran through the cold rain in pori, just feeling the world around me turn, feeling complete, feeling after all happy. then today i somehow started thinking about my dreams, or better what was left of them. i remember promising myself that i would conquer worlds and change things around…
Read morethis year’s love. sitting in a park in helsinki, i once again face a challenge, something that has always made me step outside of me and go for it, go for the challenge or as franz said, what do i have to lose… i believe.
Read morelearning to breathe. the most amazing thing that technology has brought to me is, that i am writing this posting while i am sitting down at jyvesjärvi (the big lake that jyväskylä is located at). the warm sunrays on my face and the world in my notebook. it’s just amazing how independent we’ve become and…
Read morecrash into me. if you go through a finnish summer for the first time you might feel overhelmed by its intensity, the sun that hardly goes down during the night, the soft shadows it causes in the evening. and if it seems i have been running all my life, i feel i have kind of…
Read moreacross the lines. and then i am back to this world again, a world of people speaking a different language, a world full of people that are different. and then i hate to fail, i would definitly hate to go back to austria and figure i couldn’t make it for whatever reasons i’d come up…
Read morelandslide. settling my mind, waving good-bye to this wonderful country, to its people and the ones i love. (how many more times will i?) went out to the graveyard to see my granddad’s grave. there’s is a bench right down the aisle and i could sit there for hours enjoying the beauty of the silence…
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