thank you and goodbye.
wany gretzky once said “i owe everything i have to the game. the game owes everything it has to the fans”. yesterday was my last competitive game ever. we lost the third game of the regional finals and though it wasn’t the outcoming we expected or the best game i ever played [...]
blank mind.
Bunnyhole is virtually empty. Everything is packed, empty rooms around me. Me sleeping in between the mess. The mess of my mind and the things around me. I handed in my thesis for publishing today, packed my stuff and closed a lot of other things in my mind as well. It just felt being [...]
a lovely day.
yesterday was good – i had three stories to write and it was a perfect day. a day when you do not have to construct or make up what you want to write. the words were all there, i just had to put it down. it was all in my head, i could [...]
the journey is everything.
watched jerry maguire again and though tom cruise is far away from being one of my favourite actors i still love that movie. i love the simple philosophy it bares: be closer, start thinking about the guy next to you once again. i did an interview for an article yesterday, drove 50 [...]
unwell.
All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I’m headed for a breakdown
And I don’t know why
But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little unwell
I know right now you can’t tell
But stay awhile [...]
honesty
A friend of mine called me. Big problems in the relationship. The other one not being honest, playing funny games, cheating a bit with this and that. He really was down. Losing that relationship would mean a whole world to him. He really has no one else in this country. No one. He would fall [...]
my immortal.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I’m bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won’t seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase
I believe.
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where will you go.
i asked myself that question a million times last night. it’s not been last night that was too much. it’s been accumulating over the last days, weeks, months. it’s your way of ignoring all those principles of loyality, trust and understanding. it’s you constantly proving that you just don’t care. it’s not [...]
10 red roses (10 reasons to love you)
1. You are the biggest loveable bunny in the world. 2. You are miserable with money, always running late, having a big mess around you: I love you because of those little annoying things as well. 3. You are the most difficult and grumpiest bunny at times. Loveable [...]
23.
A year ago I was sitting home in Jyväskylä, crying on my very own birthday. Today, I don’t remember the actual reasons anymore, what I however do remember is, that it was then, I started making a decisions that I just wanted to go home. Be with the people I loved and liked. A year [...]
Only Hope
There’s a song that’s inside of my soul
It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again
I’m awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I [...]
the fighting is too much
I hope that the influence I give is a positive one. I want to change someone’s world for the better, I want them to feel some of the happiness I can share. Not many people realize the effect they can have on another person, positive or negative. This [...]
Not me, us.
Slowly a dream is coming true. Mindwork is evolving into something more than just a website with my thoughts on it. Mindwork should be minds meeting and melting. There’s so much to change here, Em, Shaun & Sanna – a short bio of each one – and more more more more minds to [...]
Visions.
Today the front page of mindwork.net says it all. No matter where I’ve been or what I do, I am continuously amazed at the way people are essentially the same everywhere I go, how we can all have the same vision for the future despite such different experiences of the past. Today I found myself [...]
Behind blue eyes.
But my dreams
They aren’t as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That’s never free
No one knows what it’s like
To feel these feelin’s
Like I do
And I blame you
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain an’ woe
Can show through
I believe.
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Because it’s always been a matter of trust.
Isn’t trust like a building? Takes ages to build and seconds to be ruined to rubble. Sometimes I just don’t know where to stop, where to stop feeling and start thinking, because though your heart creates trust, your head sometimes can save it. Might take some time until [...]
I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I’ve broken.
Just chatted with a special person. A person that has made such great impact on my life. Because with her, I failed. I failed in every which way I could ever fail. And it was probably that failure that makes me love sanna so [...]
Around the world in 1297 days.
I’m finally back home now, and it does feel like home.
Although it is strange to be in a familiar place with so many unfamiliar things, I now realise that the longer I stayed away, the more I was distancing myself from the things I love and remember. Right now [...]
A life yet to live.
it’s getting spring here (amazing, huh?), yesterday we had around eight degrees. unbelievable i was just wearing a shirt and a light jacket. this is gonna be a good year, i can feel it. sanna is moving here. i got my job, my studies are doing okay, loads of plans, real [...]
it could happen to anyone
We have got a young trainee at the travel agency where I work every now and then. She didn’t come to work for couple of days and we started wondering, what is wrong with her. Doesn’t she want to? Is there something wrong? Then came the phone call: her parents had [...]
and she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land.
i keep forgetting about it, but life is beautiful. la vita é bella how the italians say. you just need to look closer and at the same time farther above all those little obstacles life holds for you. i’ve been so busy lately, [...]
Calm
I was so scared for awhile that it worried me. I didn’t know what road to take and how far to walk the path that I would choose. It is amazing how at ease someone can make you feel just by talking. The closest friends are those that you love unending and [...]
incredibly beautifull
Went down to Jyväsjärvi to skate. It seemed like half of the city was down there at the lake: families, friends, lovers, kids, old couples… everyone enjoying the beauty of a winter Sunday: snow, ice, sunshine, cold. Happy people surrounded by beauty. This is my home. This is where I come from.
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20.000 meilen über dem meer.
20.000 miles above the sea.
feels like coming home. flying to finland once again march 17th. it’s weird, it’s been my home for nearly 1 1/2 years and now i am going back. back to where i had some of the lightest and darkest moments of my life. where doubts grew and [...]
alone
brake my world
hold me tight
till I fall asleep
don’t ask me why
don’t tell me later
do it now I ask
missing you
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Now is always the right time.
I am becoming restless. Everything moves around me. My life is changing: finishing my studies, moving out of my flat, changing countries… actually I think even more things are changing inside of me. Nothing is like it used to be. It feels like I am in front of countless amount [...]