Ever study and make yourself dumber than when you began? It’s frustrating to try and fill the area in my brain reserved for calculus when it appears that it must be full already. Overload? I dunno. I think my brain just shut off after spring break. Grrr… Well, hope it turns back on sometime soon….
Read moreJetzt wächst zusammen, was zusammen gehört. (Now what belongs together, grows together) Back where so many of my thoughts came from. Back where difficult decisions marked turnings points in my life. Back in a country that has been so far away and yet so close. Yesterday I walked through the streets here in Jyväskylä. just…
Read moreAnother year. For the first time in 4 years, it is my birthday and I am at home. It’s a gorgeous autumn day in Hobart, I would almost describe it as perfect. I’m not really one for making resolutions, but this year I know there is something that will change. From now on, I’m going…
Read moreWeave a dream. I flew over the baltic sea yesterday. Endless stretches of snow and ice. The sun mirroring in the water’s surface in the spots between. A lonely ship making its way towards east. Eight miles above the surface, all differences between countries fade. There’s no you and me. No east and west. No…
Read moreA journey back in time. And I’m leaving on a jet plane – and I do know when I’ll be back again. Though I am excited – I really am, weird feeling deep inside – how will the people have changed since I left in june? How will I have changed? Life in Finland just…
Read morewaiting Watching… The sun going down on me Waiting… To finally get over this thing Holding… Onto what ever comes along my way, this way Breathing the air, too cold and too hard for me -lyrics by Killer: Watching – Waiting I am waiting for Stefan. Seems to take ages before he is here. Waiting…
Read moreThere’s beauty in believing. So people keeps asking me why I sign everything with “I believe”. It’s quite simple really, technically it’s part of a song by creed – When you are with me I’m free, I’m careless, I believe. I don’t think I’m very religious in a sense that I go to church on…
Read moreWhen the violence causes silence. We must be mistaken. Where were you when 160 people died on a sunny spanish day? Why did you look the other way when senseless violence ripped them out of their lifes and took them away from their loved ones? Last week’s attack on spanisch trains are just one more…
Read moreAccidents can happen to anyone. Even me. Last Wednesday we had blizzard like conditions. I was leaving the house of a high school student that I tutor (algebra II) and I live very close to him so I decided to go home. I could still see, it wasn’t a complete white-out. I figured that if…
Read moreHow can I love you When you’re so far away? How do I hold on To all the memories? I can’t remember With all the time that’s gone by The words that you’d spoken Igniting feelings inside I find it haunting When I see you in my dreams I miss your smile I miss your…
Read morecome on up for the rising. it’s amzing how some things are equal wherever they happen. love for example. many faces and still the same thing. missing someone in your life – right now all i can do about sanna, is to tell people about her. what i feel and what i am afraid of,…
Read moreA free voice. We’ve had regional elections here yesterday. It was the first time I could vote at home. Not only was it the first time in my life I could be in the middle of it as a journalist, but also to make use of my democratic right to vote. To express what I…
Read moreOnly time can heal…But change can help to speed up the process Not so much solemn left inside me, but much more joy that has been waiting to come out for so long. I am a happy girl once again and I love every second of it. All the fighting is gone, and it’s never…
Read moreThat’s the way it’s gonna be, little darlin’. you start counting days. and recount. and count them once again. i’m so eager to go. see sanna, my friends, finland. see the people that are so close, yet so far away. can’t wait to see mikko, get a taste of my old life. walk back to…
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