For Leon, wherever this may find him. Fortunately I met Leon not long before I left the USA. I say fortunately, because for some reason which I cannot define in any tangible way, there is something special about him. Also, because at a time when I couldn’t work out who I was, or where in…
Read more25 golden stars. In 1995 I first saw the Austrian flag next to the one of the European Union. Exactly 50 years after World War II had ended, we ended up belonging once again. Really belonging. As of May 1st, 10 new countries will give the EU a new face, a new drive and probably…
Read moreA change towards better I’ve have been working at an ice cream shop for about a week in order to get some money. Not particularly challenging for a person who has just finished her master’s degree. But this has really made me think how many people in this world just have to do what ever…
Read moreThe grey area Do you ever ask yourself if you are holding onto things or people that are in a way self-destructive? I’ve asked myself this and I know that by the time I am asking this it is too late…I’ve already held onto someone that I should have let go. It’s very nice that…
Read moreEverything. I’ve always admired Ernest Hemingway. Keep it simple and stupid he once said, asked about writing. His descriptive and still newspaper-like style kept me chained to every line of his books I’ve read so far. I went on a short trip to Amsterdam last week. I could hear the waves brush against the bridges….
Read moreReckless Valour. On the 25th April 1915, with the world at war, a group of Australian and New Zealand troops, self-named the Australian and New Zealand Army Corp, who were part of the larger British Empire contingent, landed on the Gallipoli Peninsula. What should have been a relatively safe landing became somewhat of a bloodbath,…
Read moremy way All I wanna do in life is to be honest to myself. Try to follow my road and do the things that feel right for myself and this doesn’t mean being selfish. Being happy simply comes from inside when you know you have done everything possible for the things you have believed in….
Read moreA small milestone for me. I submitted five entries a while back for a school publishing of poetry. I just received the letter in the mail today telling that one was accepted. It is a nice feeling, to know that my work is going to be shared and felt by many. It is a controversial…
Read morethe important ones I am alone at the yellow house. Silence in the building, only me around. Feels great and feels strange. Again a mixed feeling. I don’t think I have felt any pure feelings lately. They have all been somehow shaked around and mixed. Love and hate, opportunism and pessimism, happiness and sadness, being…
Read moreThere seems to be an epidemic going on where I live; it is something that people should be a bit more careful of but it turns out that some people just don’t care. What am I referring to? STD’s. There are so many people, male and female alike, that are infected and they still continue…
Read morecreating identities Who am I? What do I want? Where am I heading? Moving abroad brings those questions over and over again in front of me. Who am I and what do I want in my life? This is one of the aspects of the post modern society. Your are creating your own identity over…
Read moreWelcome to this planet. Moving to another country is not just packing your stuff at home and unpacking it again, wherever life has taken you. It’s about recreation. Recreation of existence. Recreation of everything constant and steady in your life. Recreation of friendships. Now I am watching Sanna unfold yet again. Unfold and grow. Welcome…
Read moreL’auberge Espagnole. A long time ago it occurred to be that I have met many people in my life already and some of these I have had the good fortune to call my friends. In some cases it was for a short time, in other cases these friendships have already spanned more than a decade….
Read moreBig my secret. Quiet. Nothing moves. A vacuum of time and place. Reading what Emily wrote lately. I have never met her. And yet she is close, closer than many of my real life friends. Being hurt and never wanting to talk about it. Me, so me. Whenever I felt hurt, I turned to writing….
Read moreWhen the hurt is too much. My friend Richard just left, off to do some more work in other parts of the country before he returns to Japan. Leaving is tough at the best of times, but in his case, to come here hurt, then so did being here and now leaving brings even more…
Read more210 years to grow, 23 minutes to fall. I was only seven years old when I had my first real understanding of politics and democracy. It was with my Mum, as she voted in what I would consider one of the most important referendums in Tasmanian and perhaps Australian history. As she explained, there was…
Read moreI can shine even in the darkness. Loneliness. I remember, even as a small child I hated being lonely. Now I never did mind being on my own – alone – but I hated to be lonely. I remember crying on my 22nd birthday in Finland. In my mind, in my heart I was oceans…
Read moreEaster is coming. And it isn’t all about the bunny. I hope everyone takes the time to remember what this holiday is really about. We are all being looked upon and listened to. You never have to worry about walking alone for there is someone there to catch your fall, if you let him. I…
Read moreWhen words fail. While this was a brief moment in time – the following scene from December 1970 continues to move me. It’s in german. In order to be understood it has to be to bare all the tragedy, the violence and the senseless dying of the second world war and its countless victims. “Vor…
Read moreAnd she only sleeps when it’s raining. It’s a mere distant memory. I remember the window was open and it seemed I could here every raindrop’s single sound. Sanna sleeping tightly next to me. It was that moment I realized how much being next to someone means to me. I was probably awake for most…
Read moreAin’t that unusual. There was one more thing I noticed in Finland. Since I started working as a journalist, I felt that world would turn around me and nothing would work without me. I am so important and so is my work. Bullshit. What’s important lies beneath of being important, being someone. I noticed that…
Read moreThere comes a time… …When you decide enough is enough. This is that time for me. I’m sick of all the fake people and their endless lies. I’m tired of people pretending they care only to turn on you later after you have bared your soul to them. I only have time for real people…
Read moreOne moment in time. Back from Finland. During the last weeks I had a weird feeling. Not just a feeling that something within me is changing. But also the fact that all around us something is different. Europe is about to make history, we’re in the middle of it and don’t realize. I did an…
Read moreI love birthdays. They are like your own little personal holiday. Cherish them. When you give them up it means you’re dead so be happy that you have them. Another year older means you have another year of experience under your belt. I had a great birthday!! I was surrounded by lots of awesome people…
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