Minä näytän vielä ihan samalta, vaikka minusta on hajonnut palasia. I still look the same, though some pices of me are missing. Im Spiegel der Puderdose betrachtete ich mein Gesicht und stellte verwundert fest, dass es unverändert war. Aber ich war ja auch nicht völlig in Stücke gegangen, nur zwei kleine Teile waren zerbrochen. I…
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You can go your own way Go your own way You an call it Another lonely day You can go your own way Go your own way I believe. Let me walk my own way.
Read moremitternacht im fundbüro…
i am in a weird stage of anticipation of things to happen. if i can’t take something then it’s uncertainty. i’m rather thrown into something head first then having to wait, slowly grinding into it. and the thing is, they don’t know me – the way i really am – though i might seem arrogant…
Read moredie wollen es doch nicht anders…
when i got back to work and told about the philippines and the level of poverty i had seen in some places there were some things said that really disturbed me. a colleague of mine said “well i’ve seen poor countries but believe me, those who want to make it, make it. the others just…
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Yesterday I went to a compulsory seminar about how to be a better supervisor to my graduate students. As were reminded, when these guys start, we sign a legal contract with them, so we’re all obliged to get it right. What really hit me though was what was said about dealing not just with the…
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i am pretty sure you have heard about the case of the girl in florida who’s been in coma for years. besides that case i started digging deeper into apallic syndrome, which would be actually the right terminology. it’s a world full of darkness with only random rays of light. and suddenly you start to…
Read moreich und wieviel von meinen freunden…
em and shaun both seem to have re-discovered the joy of writing. seems things start swinging mindwork’s way again – started feeling a bit lonely here. i’ve turned into an early bird lately, been getting up between 6.00 and 7.00 – for a guy who used to sleep through 9 easily quite a change.and something…
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This is my last semester at this school. I have eighteen credits (12 is considered FT), work forty plus hours a week, and still have a social life. I need every class that I am taking. I can feel the pressure that surrounds my doing well this semester but it is almost as if it…
Read moreAge is relative
A long time ago my sister asked our grandmother how old she felt in her head. She must have been about 85 at the time but she said that in her head she was still 32. After spending the last few months not wanting to turn 30 when the day actually came around there was…
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i guess the trip was too short, i had a feeling i would have neede a couple of more days. just to understand the fraction of our small world i was seeing – i gotta go back there, that’s for sure. right now it feels i am suspended between two steps waiting for others to…
Read moreand i am leaving..
the philippines were amazing and frightening all together. sitting at manila airport waiting for the flight that will take me back to my world. thinking about some decisions that will most likely change my life for a good part. but it’s time to make them. more later. i believe.
Read morewhere the ocean meets the land…
boracay is simply breathtaking. went for a walk at the beach while the sun slowly set and painted the sky in colors i have yet to believe. real beauty is when the mind can’t understand what the eyes are witnessing. i believe.
Read moremy name’s J.R….
the best thing about going somewhere else are the people. being here on the philippines once again assured me that this little blue planet is a lot smaller than we think – as long as we remind ourselves that we all are just human beings despite of the color of your skin, the look of…
Read moresign here, please…
i am paying everything here in manila by credit card, i think the peso is bound to the dollar and the dollar well – sucks right now. since i can’t really re-produce my own signature clerks really frown at me anyway – i am nothing compared to this guy. i believe.
Read moreyou know…
you slept to long if: below’s sign has been under your hotel room door for three straight days indicating i wasn’t even realizing i only got up at 2 in the afternoon.
Read morewait, it’s a clone.
how stupid does a company have to be to do an _exact_ copy of another one’s just launched product. hagga_blog has all the news from cebit. wondering how long it’s going to take apple to rip those “supershuffle” posters off the walls… i believe.
Read morea new beginning.
as much as i can’t say if switching to a new life is as easy as switching to a new blog, i am trying to do it. manila and the impressions of the last days have probably altered the way i look at things forever. because all of a sudden i noticed, that things i…
Read moremanila calling. i lost track of the times i have been saluted, greeted with “hi sir”, and “thank you sir”. we drove by some of the poorest districts in the embassy’s limousine – feels like being a celebrity in a country full of poverty. i believe. then again everbody seems to be in a shopping…
Read moreasia. never in my life before i have witnessed such a contrast of unbelievable wealth and total poverty. manila on a first look is not for the faint of heart. it’s a face of the world i have never seen before. i believe.
Read morea whole new world. it’s been a long time since i saw herbert and it’s been evern a longer time since we sat down and talked. sitting at vienna airport – a 14 hour flight in front of me, i feel – yes, i really do – happy. i believe.
Read moreFreedom My life has taken on so many changes as of late. Adam and I split back in November but we decided to still ‘date.’ If that isn’t the best excuse to keep someone around for convenience, then I don’t know what is. Lately, I have been distancing myself from him. We are to remain…
Read moreDie Liebe der Charlotte Gray. why do i have to be stupid and afraid of making a fool of myelf? duh! i got so close, and yet i am so far away. if you can read my thoughts, help me with this one. please. i believe.
Read morevolle distanz. it’s just between you and me. though we’re not exactly on speaking terms right now, please help her – you know what i mean. she believes in you.
Read moreWeglaufen geht nicht, das ist mir klar. since i started writing at mindwork i ended all my posts with one line: i believe. i had a feeling there was a contract between him and me, god and stefan. tonight i felt there was no contract. it felt you left me, when i needed you most,…
Read moreDie längste Zeit, die du verbringst. went to vienna just by myself, a weekend away from klagenfurt is just what i need now. and man did i have a blast yesterday evening, met astrid of esn whom i hadn’t seen in a long time (a year or so) – it generally feels just woohoo to…
Read morea million souls. got my hepatitis vaccination for the philippines today. 70 euro spent to protect my life. 70 euro i paid easily out of pocket. a million people every year don’t get that chance. they die of hepatitis b. think about it. i believe.
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