Month: March 2005

You can go your own way Go your own way You an call it Another lonely day You can go your own way Go your own way I believe. Let me walk my own way.

i am in a weird stage of anticipation of things to happen. if i can’t take something then it’s uncertainty. i’m rather thrown into something head first then having to wait, slowly grinding into it. and the thing is, they don’t know me – the way i really am – though i might seem arrogant…

when i got back to work and told about the philippines and the level of poverty i had seen in some places there were some things said that really disturbed me. a colleague of mine said “well i’ve seen poor countries but believe me, those who want to make it, make it. the others just…

Yesterday I went to a compulsory seminar about how to be a better supervisor to my graduate students. As were reminded, when these guys start, we sign a legal contract with them, so we’re all obliged to get it right. What really hit me though was what was said about dealing not just with the…

This is my last semester at this school. I have eighteen credits (12 is considered FT), work forty plus hours a week, and still have a social life. I need every class that I am taking. I can feel the pressure that surrounds my doing well this semester but it is almost as if it…

A long time ago my sister asked our grandmother how old she felt in her head. She must have been about 85 at the time but she said that in her head she was still 32. After spending the last few months not wanting to turn 30 when the day actually came around there was…

i guess the trip was too short, i had a feeling i would have neede a couple of more days. just to understand the fraction of our small world i was seeing – i gotta go back there, that’s for sure. right now it feels i am suspended between two steps waiting for others to…

the philippines were amazing and frightening all together. sitting at manila airport waiting for the flight that will take me back to my world. thinking about some decisions that will most likely change my life for a good part. but it’s time to make them. more later. i believe.

boracay is simply breathtaking. went for a walk at the beach while the sun slowly set and painted the sky in colors i have yet to believe. real beauty is when the mind can’t understand what the eyes are witnessing. i believe.

i am paying everything here in manila by credit card, i think the peso is bound to the dollar and the dollar well – sucks right now. since i can’t really re-produce my own signature clerks really frown at me anyway – i am nothing compared to this guy. i believe.

you slept to long if: below’s sign has been under your hotel room door for three straight days indicating i wasn’t even realizing i only got up at 2 in the afternoon.

as much as i can’t say if switching to a new life is as easy as switching to a new blog, i am trying to do it. manila and the impressions of the last days have probably altered the way i look at things forever. because all of a sudden i noticed, that things i…

asia. never in my life before i have witnessed such a contrast of unbelievable wealth and total poverty. manila on a first look is not for the faint of heart. it’s a face of the world i have never seen before. i believe.

a whole new world. it’s been a long time since i saw herbert and it’s been evern a longer time since we sat down and talked. sitting at vienna airport – a 14 hour flight in front of me, i feel – yes, i really do – happy. i believe.

Freedom My life has taken on so many changes as of late. Adam and I split back in November but we decided to still ‘date.’ If that isn’t the best excuse to keep someone around for convenience, then I don’t know what is. Lately, I have been distancing myself from him. We are to remain…

Die Liebe der Charlotte Gray. why do i have to be stupid and afraid of making a fool of myelf? duh! i got so close, and yet i am so far away. if you can read my thoughts, help me with this one. please. i believe.

volle distanz. it’s just between you and me. though we’re not exactly on speaking terms right now, please help her – you know what i mean. she believes in you.

Weglaufen geht nicht, das ist mir klar. since i started writing at mindwork i ended all my posts with one line: i believe. i had a feeling there was a contract between him and me, god and stefan. tonight i felt there was no contract. it felt you left me, when i needed you most,…

Die längste Zeit, die du verbringst. went to vienna just by myself, a weekend away from klagenfurt is just what i need now. and man did i have a blast yesterday evening, met astrid of esn whom i hadn’t seen in a long time (a year or so) – it generally feels just woohoo to…

a million souls. got my hepatitis vaccination for the philippines today. 70 euro spent to protect my life. 70 euro i paid easily out of pocket. a million people every year don’t get that chance. they die of hepatitis b. think about it. i believe.