i’ve been at the helsinki-vantaa airport so many times, i stopped counting. i’ve come and left, but hardly any time it felt this difficult to leave. when i moved back to austria in june 2003, i had a distinctive feeling that finland doesn’t hold a chance for me. i might as well just not have…
Read morecome josephine.
i don’t want to be on that plane. i want to stay here. Come Josephine in my flying machine And it’s up she goes Up she goes Balance yourself like a bird on a beam In the air she goes There she goes Up, up, a little bit higher Oh, my, the moon is on…
Read moreno words needed.
it’s at the point when you think you’ve seen it all, when new emotions overhelm you. this time coming to finland has been different from all the other times i have visited this place. being here with riitta has changed my world in some regards. we are staying with her parents, visited her grandparents and…
Read moreyou gotta be real.
and life at its best feels like being here in finland. when we drove from helsinki to kuopio i felt it – i belong here in one way or another. i thought of my grandad and that there are no coincidences. there are none, not a single one. me being in finland is what feels…
Read moreTo Norrland and back again
With so much travel in the last month, life has been getting away from me again, but this time I’m enjoying the ride. With my first trip to China coming up on Monday I’m still living on a high from almost 3 weeks in Sweden. After the amazing experience of such amazing hospitality from friends,…
Read morecan I tell?
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain. Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a…
Read moreflying high.
did my first flight on the katana. calling it exciting would be a total understatement for what i felt. even being a two-seat one-prop plane i really felt like a bird. beautiful, pure and and relieved from all that stayed behind. i believe.
Read moreyou’re beautiful.
i had this really tough day at work, since i am the commander in chief until elli comes back from her vacation. so i worked my butt off until 5 pm when the cleaning lady came in. she came to my desk put up this really sweet face and asked “can i tell you something?”…
Read moreas far as i am concerned.
listening to händel’s concerto grosso. enjoying a wonderful “casillero del diablo” – life can be so simple. simple in it’s difficulties and its beauty. i believe.
Read morethe truth is out there.
well almost. being a journalist i always try to keep a somewhat critical distance on things i read. well the styrian branch of the (conservative) austrian people’s party (österreichisches volkspartei = övp) deserves a huge share of that critical distance it seems. several austrian newspapers, as “der standard” today published an övp-internal document on how…
Read moreanother opinion.
the posting was removed on the request of the author. please accept my apologies.
Read morelittle gifts from above.
might be that i somehow felt it, and then i didn’t. but now i know – god happens to send all these people along my way. among them this little blonde girl waiting for me in finland. waiting for me. just beautiful. i believe.
Read morelondon rain.
the memories came back: new york, 1991, i was ten by then. the wtc, the towers. i felt small. then skövde, sweden, september 2001. again, i felt small and that this world is vulnerable. now london, 2005. what next? rome, kopenhagen, berlin? i hope that god or by which name you want to call him…
Read morea story bound to repeat itself.
Iniqua numquam regna perpetuo manent. Unjust rulers do not reign for a long time. isn’t it werid how things in this world are repeated over and over again. life is going on but is it going anywhere? are we improving at all? or are we just dead in the water? so many questions, so few…
Read moreabout conjunctives.
i could, would, should. sentences filled with excuses, old ones, new ones but excuses anyway. quite frankly it’s sometimes tring to live in a world filled with excuses. it makes me tired and sad. but then probably this is what life feels like sometimes: tired and sad. i believe.
Read moresleep where have you gone?
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain. Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a…
Read moreabout hurt and how it feels.
It felt like a punch in the stomach. Right there, where it really hurts. Hello? Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone home? Come on, now. I hear you’re feeling down. Well I can ease your pain, Get you on your feet again. Relax. I need some…
Read morelife’s little lessons.
live a little, learn a little. a thoughtful weekend with one big learning: it’s a small world and people, wherever they may be, are haunted by similar problems, cheered by similar joys and united by little things. things that last: love, friendship, honesty. thanks for everything. i believe.
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