Whenever I don’t know what else to do, I ride. Tonight I almost couldn’t because to get on the bike got me thinking about just what I was trying to avoid, but I knew no other option, so the bike it was. In the hope that the pain in my legs might burn away the…
Read morethe higher you get, the further you fall
This morning in one brief moment my world came crashing down around me. I want to keep it all together, to try and be strong but I’m lost in a daze, frozen in time and feel like nothing I know makes any sense any more.
Read moreto my grandmother
you are one of the most complicated people i know on this planet. but then you are always there for me when i need you, you care more than anyone i know, you care in your own special way and though i sometimes refused to come see you, you were always in my heart. here…
Read moreTrying not to slide
Blue sky when you gonna learn to rain? And let yourself go blue for once And let go of the weight you’ve been carrying In this house, no one goes to sleep for days, Its like were working on a mountainside Trying not to slide, Into the ocean I believe.
Read morebutterflies
you: i don’t know…i would want to know as well…my butterflies..are there..but scared..it is all different..i am afraid always afraid i will lose it somehow me: and i am afraid i will never find it again i believe.
Read moreMänner-WG
Since 8 nights I´m sharing bath + kitchen + livingroom with Stefan … it´s Männer-WG-esque … like back in the days in Hannover and Aachen and South-Carolina … only with less dirt and a bit more of daytime-occupation … but it´s still Corona + Pringles + a tiny bit of male trashtalk … well… after all that´s…
Read moreoh yeah, and there’s christoph
after a long time (way too long) i am introducing christoph to mindwork. well not much to say as he will speak for himself, but i’d put him into the believer category. in one way or another :) i believe.
Read moreThe hope that starts
I’m facing one of the bigger challenges in my life, just because I’m sometimes chaotic and sometimes as well really stupid in neglecting things. I still believe.
Read moreHydrogen
“…for me chemistry represented an indefinite cloud of future potentialities which enveloped my life to come in black volutes torn by fiery flashes, like those which had hidden Mt Sinai. Like Moses, from that cloud I expected my law, the principle of order in me, around me, and in the world…I would watch the buds…
Read morenew beginnings?
I met someone from my past this week and like it usually is in Hobart, there are so many common connections it is hard to work out how we had been strangers for so long until now. Not that any of this really matters in the end and right now I’m just glad that we’ve…
Read morehockey
With only one round left, we’re holding down 2nd spot on the ladder and all things goes well I would rate my team as serious title contenders. Why then am I sick of hockey and for the first time ever, I actually don’t really care whether we win or not? As I pondered this very…
Read morewhy I love teaching
There are some days when I wonder if I really chose the right career and for a brief moment I will even consider giving it all away. Sometimes I wonder if I’m really cut out for research and other days I despair at teaching. Not today though. This afternoon I escaped to my office for…
Read moreHappiness is just a chemical
Maybe…but for me right now, happiness is new CDs. 137 mins of new music and the whole evening ahead of me. Life is good.
Read morethe war in their eyes II
five minutes ago our right-wing governor jörg haider gave an interview to the austrian broadcasting operation ORF, stating he’s pushing “for a chechen-free” carinthia. what have we become? I believe. [tags]Austria, Carinthia, Klagenfurt, Haider, Chechen, Chechens, Chechenian, BZÖ [/tags]
Read morethe war in their eyes
i’ve been busy writing about a fight that evolved between local people and Chechen refugees in my hometown. It all ended in a huge fist-fight on a playground which took ten policemen to be ended. and now of course public opinion is likely to start swinging into the wrong direction. What people don’t see is…
Read moreno attention
austrian politician jörg haider a couple of days ago proposed a vote on weither austria should stay or leave the european union. well, haider has done weirder things like that, but even better: no austrian newspaper (including the kleine zeitung) really cared. there were small articles, mostly 5- or 10-liners about it. nothing else. in…
Read moreHow to be happy
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Read morea few words needed
“so..nevermind..you are good..” thank you, i sometimes need people to tell me that as well. i believe.
Read morefair play
I’ve played team sport almost my whole life. I’m competitive in almost everything I do, so sport is no exception. However, today I was reminded that no matter how much I want to win, I always want a fair game. As a coach I also do everything I can to teach my team that they…
Read morestrong opinions
what i still forget – though i should finally have learned – is to tell people what i really think. way too many times i keep things inside me. but hiding them doesn’t make the bad feelings disappear. you just forget about them until they re-surface in a place you wouldn’t have expected them to….
Read moreyou were born to play that part
Where ever you are I hope you’re happy now I’m caught in a dream and I cant get out I’m caught in a dream I’m caught in an endless dream I believe.
Read morethe sunflower
i took my d50 for a little ride, looking for the perfect shot. but pictures are like words, if you are trying too hard to sound educated, entertaining and witty in the end you never do. at the end of my trip, just as i had put my camera away – i found beauty in…
Read moreantoine
How could drops of water know themselves to be a river? Yet the river flows on. I believe.
Read morea little wordpress screw-up
ooops – upgrading to wordpress 2.04 took all my modifications to ulf pettersson’s great modern theme with it. so my flickr stream as well as the technorati include are gone. please be patient, while we’re bringin things back to normal. i believe.
Read morewhere the ocean meets the land
I tell myself it would be different now, I wouldn’t treat her that way. I wouldn’t be me if she wasn’t her, and it’s far too late, anyway. ‘Cause she doesn’t exist any more, She doesn’t exist any more. Only inside you the ghost of the love, that is wordless and painful and old. There’s…
Read moreocean spray
It’s easy to see, it’s easy to see To see only white where colour should be It’s easy to feel, it’s easy to feel But it’s not good enough, even though it’s real Oh please stay away And then we can drink some Ocean Spray Oh please stay away And then we can drink some…
Read morelife as a house
by a very small quote from a very beautiful movie, my eyes were opened just a bit further: “I always thought of myself as a house. I was always what I lived in. It didn’t need to be big. It didn’t even need to be beautiful. It just needed to be mine. I became what…
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