up north.

got an sms from mia. she’s back in finland again – i really envy her, wish i could be up there again. now that i have my so called life here, i miss that country so much. got a message from sanna “i am feeling lonely wherever i am”. why aren’t you here put up north. or the other way around: what am i doing here, instead of being up north – where at least a part of me belongs. i have been really wondering about how it will feel if i go back to Jyväskylä with the family I yet have to have, show my kids around and tell them, that daddy has been living here and that somewhere between the lakes and the endless forrests some of his dreams and wishes are forever buried. i miss it – up north.

i believe.