It’s easier to leave than to be left behind.

That’s what I feel like now: left behind. I get this feeling that life decided to go on, leaving me behind. I somtimes wake up in the night, thinking that all of this is just a dream. That I’d wake up the next day and everything would be back to normal. Back to the normality I had planned for Sanna, me and the family I once wanted us to become. Elena (my boss) keeps telling me, that everything will turn out just fine. But how can things ever be back to normal if I can’t change the past?

I believe.