and so this is christmas.

had my last working day before christmas yesterday. as 2004 is coming to an end i am looking back on one of the weirdest years in my life. it’s been an emotional rollercoaster ride during which everything changed and nothing stayed the same. god took and god gave – my grandma lost both of her sisters, my grandaunts. one just two days ago. i lost sanna. and by losing sanna, i lost track of the joy that used to drive me forward. of course my small mind will never be able to understand what god has planned for all of us, but sometimes, a small hint would be nice. just to know there is love, life and joy behind the next corner. and with all that pain and anger i’ve felt during 2004 i still feel thankful. i’ve met some remarkable people, enjoyed some beautiful moments and the feeling that someone is watching over me has only grown stronger.

a merry christmas or “frohe weihnachten” as we austrians say.
wherever you may be.

i believe.