Whenever I don’t know what else to do, I ride. Tonight I almost couldn’t because to get on the bike got me thinking about just what I was trying to avoid, but I knew no other option, so the bike it was. In the hope that the pain in my legs might burn away the pain inside I climbed, right up the mountain, as hard as I could, until there was just nowhere left to go. But with no more mountain left, that dull ache still remained, leaving me left to wonder, how and if I can ever chase this pain away.