the fighting is too much<\/p>\n
I hope that the influence I give is a positive one. I want to change someone’s world for the better, I want them to feel some of the happiness I can share. Not many people realize the effect they can have on another person, positive or negative. This is especially true with relatives. While I should be careful what I say to not become a hypocrite myself, it is hard when family members feel like they can say anything they want to you and that you’ll always forgive them. I can forgive but I’ll never forget. Those words stay with me for the rest of my life, haunting. Unkind words can slash a deep wound within you that may never heal. This is true with all people. I’m getting a big hole that is severing any good relations with my grandfather. I live with him right now. I shake my head a lot of times and I think of how much my family needs help. So many of them waste their lives away in a bottle that has no end. He is one of them. So is my mother. I try to reach out and hold on and help them but no one ever hears anything. They just drown even farther into their delusion. Some days I feel like losing hope. That is a scary feeling for someone like me. I suppose it would be scary for anyone who experiences it. May God watch over me and guide me out of the situation I am finding myself in. I feel like I am losing myself. Help me hold on. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
the fighting is too much I hope that the influence I give is a positive one. I want to change someone’s world for the better, I want them to feel some of the happiness I can share. Not many people realize the effect they can have on another person, positive or negative. This is especially…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":0,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-394","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/394","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=394"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/394\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=394"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=394"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=394"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}