{"id":493,"date":"2004-07-15T17:53:54","date_gmt":"2004-07-15T22:53:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/?p=493"},"modified":"2004-07-15T17:53:54","modified_gmt":"2004-07-15T22:53:54","slug":"","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/?p=493","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>when you bleed just to know you&#8217;re alive.<\/p>\n<p>it&#8217;s like the empty sky bruce springsteen wrote about. when you lose someone so essential to your life, everyathing feels like a big vacuum. you&#8217;re sucked in and there seems to be no way out. while i live, i don&#8217;t feel alive. right now i feel numb and that feeling of numbness comes from deep inside. did i throw away everything just for a few moments of freedom or was it life that guided me into a different direction?<\/p>\n<p>i still believe.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>when you bleed just to know you&#8217;re alive. it&#8217;s like the empty sky bruce springsteen wrote about. when you lose someone so essential to your life, everyathing feels like a big vacuum. you&#8217;re sucked in and there seems to be no way out. while i live, i don&#8217;t feel alive. right now i feel numb&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":0,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-493","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/493","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=493"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/493\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=493"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=493"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindwork.net\/myblog\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=493"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}