It’s been a long time but this time I really am back.
\nLike so many other times in my life, when things get busy or feel like too much I shut myself off and turn inside to the things I believe I can control. The older I get I’m not convinced that I’m necessarily getting any wiser but slowly and surely I am learning to accept that there is so much I can’t control and it really is time to let go.
\nIt’s been busy in mostly a good way, but sometimes I do wonder how life suddenly got so much more complicated, or maybe it is just that I can see how much my life is not just about me anymore. My life seems to be one endless grant application, interspersed with student meetings and admin committments. I never thought i would dream of the day when I could get back into the lab. Then at the end of the day my brain is so fried that I do some of the dumbest things, pushing away the very people I want closest to me in the process.
\nSo here I find myself, snowed under with work like no other time, 10 days out from a month of travel to Sweden then China but finally for the first time in my life I have realised that this is not everything and without you, J, it’s worth nothing.<\/p>\n
What if you should decide
\nThat you don’t want me there in your life
\nThat you don’t want me there by your side<\/p>\n
Oooooooh thats right
\nLet’s take a breath, jump over the side
\nOooooooh that’s right
\nHow can you know it when you don’t even try
\nOooooooh that’s right<\/p>\n
Oooooooh thats right
\nLet’s take a breath, jump over the side
\nOooooooh that’s right
\nYou know that darkness always turns into light<\/p>\n
Take a chance with me. I can’t promise you the world, but I can promise I won’t let you down like that again. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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