there’s something to mornings, an unsaid promise that leaves the night behind. there are days when i lie in bed, fully awake though it’s 4am. today is one of these days. my thoughts jumped and stopped somewhere in finland. i thought about life there, about the people i met and how so few of them stayed in my life. and it sometimes hurts because i still believe it’s where i came to be. or then i am living in the past. and i keep telling myself that if i take astrid to jyv\u00c3\u00a4skyl\u00c3\u00a4 with me i have nothing to show but the buildings i know – some places, some windows i have been standing behind. ari, katja, kaapo, ike and so many others left. and still my heart is connected to it, to hanna and mikko i think of so often. we have to go back there, because nobody ever seems to understand that i wasn’t gone for two years but that i had arrived in a place that i now belong to in some way or another.<\/p>\n
Have you ever slept it off to the bones
\nAnd woken up at night my love
\nHaving dreamt you called them all
\nEvery person you could never love<\/p>\n
I believe. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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