25May2004 9:24pm
i can’t take this any longer
the words echo inside of me
voices screaming neverending
something’s taking hold of me
i could stop it if i wanted
but feeling like this penetrates
every inch of my whole being
knowing i won’t hesitate
senses causing endless shivers
run up and down in everywhere
taste the scent of my intruder
he tries to haunt me – i’m [...]
the best is yet to come.
that’s what i realized listening to van morrison`s “someone like you”. thanks to god watching over me, i have met so many people that give me a chance to make something out of me. to make me complete to make me love and feel loved. people exactly like you.
I’ve been [...]
Here I stand…
I was told yesterday that I am a very spiritual person. This isn’t just limited to believing in God, but also being passionate about my life. I am not religious, but I do love my life. I am trying to help a friend with hers as well at the moment. [...]
Our lives.
We spend them looking for so many things we’ll never need. As I read somewhere at the end of our lives, we will only be measured by two things. By those we love and those who loves us. Nothing in between. Nothing to add. Nothing to take away. These are our lives, let’s go [...]
Painters always paint alone.
A house by the sea. Whoever you might be, how did you know? I could walk along of where the ocean meets the land. There’d be me and my books by the open fire. In my mind I have painted that picture millions of times. A life full of [...]
Am I wrong.
Ernest Hemingway once said, that the rarest thing he knew in intelligent people was happiness. I got an email from a friend today and it boiled down to one simple question: Who are you really, Stefan? I don’t know, I simply don’t. My very own me is so fragile that I am afraid [...]
Mein Name ist Mensch.
Small tears running down my cheeks. Relief. I only notice how big the pressure sometimes is when I start crying for no reason. I drove down from Villach today and for the split of a second the land, the mountains, the lakes and the whole beauty of this place spread out in [...]
The last day
It is amazing. I am back in Finland for a week. I am having today the last day of university. Can you believe it? The last day. Then it is over and I will get my Master?s degree. But the fact that this total of six years is at end. I never [...]
A swedish state of mind.
Sometimes insignificant things happen to you, just to realize, that whatever happens, happens for a reason. There are no coincidences. Take the last two days for example. I went to Hamburg on a press trip my alarm didn’t go off, so I missed the bus to the airport and took a [...]
Britney says it right
Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
I make believe
That you are here
It’s the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
At night [...]
Anxiety
School is almost done and I’m into the finals week next week. I have been waiting for summer for quite awhile now. There is so much that I wanna do that I’m going stir crazy. I know with Summer’s arrival I will be working more. This is a good thing for [...]
everyday angels
Once more Jewel:
I was thinking that I might fly today
Just to disprove all the things you say
It doesn’t take a talent to be mean
Your words can crush things that are unseen
So please be careful with me, I’m sensitive
And I’d like to stay that way.
I have this theory that if we’re told we’re bad
Then that’s [...]
Every day life
Rushing through everyday things sometimes makes you blind. Blind for beauty and the important ones around. I wish I could always see the moment and stop to just be there and share it. Say nothing, do nothing, just be there. Whit you I try even harder and whit you it is even more [...]
Nightswimming.
Another full moon. To me it looks as the moon would take a dip in an endless ocean and the nameless drops of time would slowly fall upon us. Calmly sleeping by my side, you probably didn’t realize the moon, slowly passing in the window. It was him and me and yes, that very moment [...]
Sunrise.
I remember my life as a series of moments. One of those moments was a couple of weeks ago. My boss called me into his office and offered me to work for the paper full-time – Millions of thoughts in my head. Millions of wishes. Millions of fears as I will be posted away from [...]