telling stories. meeting adrian here in finland meant a lot to me, and in a way i understand the way he feels about that girl, the way he behaves and the way the situation appears to him. coming to finland was not an easy decision, but once i understood WHY i went, it was one…
Read morewe meet again. to a special friend, wherever she may be: i barely know you as who you are to the world outside, but i do know what sleeps inside you and surfaces in those little moments that make me realize, that the touch of your hand and the small tears that caused those little…
Read morethe second you sleep. i’ll dream of you tonight, being here without you and cracking things down to where they come from, the meaning they have in my life and how i can influence these things. the last couple of days: thinking about the things i have done in my life, my studies, my work…
Read moreflight 404. i surfed around today, basically just chilling and stumbled across some nice piece of webart. it’s basically a story about a plane which disappears under mysterious circumstances. you should really have a look i couldn’t stop reading. Flight 404 i believe.
Read morethe great old man. Try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value. Albert Einstein, again and again i believe.
Read morePeople are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don’t believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can’t find them, make them. – George Bernard Shaw I believe.
Read morewhoever saves one soul, saves the world entire. i talked to him this night and it felt as he had come back from a remote place and the feeling of not him seing him for such a long time and then hearing his voice, his apologies for leaving me and not coming back for such…
Read moreriver of dreams. i bascially spent the whole last night dreaming of changes and chances. sanna told me i woke up laughing and i even remember that myself. i think i am ready to out there and conquer them all. above all other things my spirit, my will and my hope will carry me. i…
Read more1000 miles away. and then here again, thinking about the country i chose, the people i met, the friends i made and that all just in a span of 2 months, amazing in a way. then the country i left, the people i left behind and the places i miss. during the last year my…
Read morefoolish games. i remember franz telling me that i was some sort of unique conflict avoider. i hate to fight and to debate if i can go around it somehow. i know sometimes a discussion can be like healing rain but then i am sometimes not quite sure if i can make it through discussions…
Read moreand i’m free. i knew the moment would come that i’d just wake up and figure i am standing on my own feet. probably i’ve been standing on those feeet for a long time now but it was just a couple of days ago that i realized that the room that was mine back home…
Read moreif you could see your way. to my dad; i remember sitting in my dorm room in skoevde, sweden thinking about how things were back home, 1500 km south from there. i remember thinking of him, how i missed him and if he missed me as well. by going to sweden my universe got another…
Read morebelieve. i am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. imagination is more important than knowledge. knowledge is limited. imagination encircles the world. albert einstein.
Read morei dare you to move. plenty of time to think on the bus back from a hockey game we had in tampere. welcome to this planet, this weird and yet fascinating place. welcome to existence – everyone’s here, everyone’s watching you now. what happen’s next? i believe.
Read morewhatever happened to amelia earheart. what makes this world wort living in are those people that dare to take a look over the edge of the known universe. people that accomplish things never done before. the motivations may be as diverse as the colors of the rainbow but the make the rest of mankind stand…
Read morehow you remind me. and austria that far and yet so close country is still where it belongs to – close to me and close to my heart. i plan to go and meet some people in skoevde beginning of april it seems my semester in sweden was such a long time ago, and yet…
Read moredon’t stop dancing. Children don’t stop dancing Believe you can fly Away…away sitting here on a beautiful sunday – the sunrays coming through the windows, i really start feeling home here, not temporary like in sweden, but settled, my suitcases stored away and feeling comfortable with what this country has given me and the secrets…
Read more21. a year older. thinking about the past year – wuapaa-austria, my semester in sweden, now finland. it’s been a good year. love carries. i believe.
Read moredue south. had a talk with one of my teacher’s at the uni today. pretty nice guy – we had a couple of good laughs about austrian/finnish stereotypes (“you play hockey??” – austrian hockey players to finns are something like downhill skiers from the kongo to austrians) – and the unavoidable question “what the heck…
Read moremy way. i’m thinking of sinatra’s song every now and then. about the short way i’ve come and the long one i still have to walk. i miss people here, people and places but i know that feeling from sweden already so i know it’s going to come and go, come and go. i remember…
Read morethe space between. running around in jyväskylä to meet people from the uni, from work & form hockey. god save the internet, was good to chat with tommy back home, gives me a feeling i’m stilll there (and a part of me will always be) – wondering what finns think of me, i bet it…
Read morebest i´ve ever had. so i made my way through most of europe :) btw – thanks to boris the russian, whom i had to share a cabin with on the superfast ferry from rostock to hanko, he made the trip truly an enjoyable one, and changed my opinion that all russians are only interested…
Read morefrom the outside. crossing the continent again, been on my feet for 30 hours straight now. went around the harbour here in hamburg, germany with sven this morning amazing. remarkable what he said about the city “there´s always a breeze of freedom around the corner” – just hit the point for me. i don´t think…
Read morewelcome new dreams. wondering when i´m gonna see this place again. it´s weird cause everything seems so final right now. wondering how i feel about this place once i´m gone. love carries. i believe.
Read morerun like mad. saturday, 4pm. now that i have a day, a time i can focus on, the good-bye seems so close, i frantically run from place to place to make sure everyone gets piece of me before i go again. how will you guys be doing when i come back (whenever that will be),…
Read morekiss the rain. whenever you need me. thinking of a long gone summer, about the people back then. about the feelings and the special smell that summer had, about nights spent sleeping curled up in the back of my car, about the emotions when people started to disappear from my life again. because their homes…
Read moresomething to remember. on the way back from hospital (mom is undergoing a minor surgery) i figured how much i really love this place, it´s probably a drive of 30 miles there, maybe a bit more and it could be that now, facing the fact that i will leave again, i´m very sensitive to these…
Read morehigher. here i´m sitting with my mind full of thoughts about leaving again, man the 3 weeks here in austria passed like a whirl and it´s pack-your-bags time again. people would grab their heads realizing what distances i did by car this past year, i got the car brand new last november and right now…
Read morethe great river. our imagination, and only this ability to lift us above all other things and beyond obstacles in our lives, sets the limit for what we do or where we go. sanna. ucommented. love inside. i believe.
Read moremay it be. i have that wonderful picture in my head, sanna walking down a row of trees, the background is white and then with a very soft fade you can see a big shot of her face. hm thinking about changing the design, why? because it doesn´t fit my mood anymore..when i made this…
Read morethe walking (and constantly) home sweet home. packing again, for the third time in 6 months, finland is calling. the introduction of the euro was a big thing here, unbelievable how excited people are, but i can understand them feeling my own excitement. 300 million people, one currency. wondering if the people in the states…
Read moreover my shoulder. what we do and where we go is something that lies deep inside everyone of us. it took me 2000km to understand what distance means, i feel like being between 2 worlds, allthough one of those world has ceased to exist. the unique combination of peope that spent those 4 months together…
Read morecome let me love you. austria – i missed you in the lonely nights and the bright days. i’m coming home, home, home. nothing can replace “home”, nothing i could think of, wheither i’m in sweden, finland or any other place in the world, my heart belongs to you, the mountains and my lake, the…
Read morewill you remember me. my time in sweden is baout to end. seems it went by in a second allthough it was 4 months. i think humain beings are always tempted to get slightly depressed when they feel someting is about to end. at least i fit in that category, sven and me went to…
Read moreheroes. sometimes i wish i could have a look at the world from space. i bet it looks like a peaceful place, like a place where you would want to raise your kids and then the blue, never-ending oceans. i feel somewhat stuck in between two worlds, was lying on my bed before wishing i…
Read moremy sacrifice. 5.16 am in the morning, should be asleep by now, converted to being a complete night owl lately, but besides work the thoughts of changing my life are keepping me busy as well. finland: freidns, uni, my parents, just evereything runs through my mind and sometimes it´s quite hard to get a clear…
Read moreI would die for you. I’ve never seen this kind of love Kind that won’t wash away And then leave you in the dark I would die for you
Read morethe 4 seasons. vivaldi and bach in the background the night has once again put it´s thick, cold coat over the city that has now been my home for 3 months. i owe sweden something. i owe sweden a thank you: one that comes by heart. thank you for giving me back what i´ve been…
Read moresitting here with an angel. a magic lights makes the country outside my window look some one dipped it into some glowing fluid. a beautiful clear sky makes it a perfect picture to go straight to my heart. the people i´ve got to know in this country will stay in my memory forever and it´s…
Read morewho needs sleep. 1 more month to go back home, to make a decision, probably changing the rest of my life. we´ll see what happens or what i MAKE happen. it´s that time when you realize it all comes down to your will to change a situation. i want to be.
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