we’ll not undo what has been done

yesterday marked the end of a big episode. i found sanna once again to be the most understanding being on earth. i was so afraid of telling her that from now on i had to make a couple of decisions for myself, for my life, i’ve felt it for weeks but i was unable or unwilling to come forward and tell just because of the fear of hurting her, cause it’s not about her or finland, it’s about me, my life and my dreams. the greatest gift you can ever get from another human being is to be loved so much, that he or she will take all the consequences for it, setting the other one totally free for example. without her and the time i spent away from home (we’re getting close to two years) i wouldn’t be the person i am today, and thankfulness is the only thing that can describe what i feel right now.

i believe.