when you bleed just to know you’re alive.

it’s like the empty sky bruce springsteen wrote about. when you lose someone so essential to your life, everyathing feels like a big vacuum. you’re sucked in and there seems to be no way out. while i live, i don’t feel alive. right now i feel numb and that feeling of numbness comes from deep inside. did i throw away everything just for a few moments of freedom or was it life that guided me into a different direction?

i still believe.