countdowns covered in snow

last but not least it has started snowing in brussels. i should have left the office at 6 but i am still at my desk. hockey practice starts at 9, two hours to go – nowhere to go in between. home? home is a thousand kilometers from here. itfeels unreal still to be here and i learned my lesson. only go if you are ready for it. i wasn’t, or at least i am not anymore. i left some of it in sweden and most of the rest in finland. i have never admitted that to myself, but leaving finland was – though the right thing – one of the hardest things i ever did. it broke my relationship and nearly took me on the way. what would you call it? homesickness at least. 17 days to go.

i believe.