I will follow him.
Haven’t been able to write a single word in a couple of days, so many things that exhausted me totally. But this is it: a new beginning, a beginning with Sanna, time and me being alone has changed so many things. I thought I’d find my luck on my own and I [...]
Now nearly all those I loved and did not understand in my youth are dead, even Jessie, but I still reach out to them. Of course, now I’m too old to be much of a fisherman and now I usually fish the big waters alone although some friends think I shouldn’t. But when I am [...]
With one hand up, you’ll show them your progress.
Franz has a fantastic gift: he’s straight, he’s honest and his advice always seem to fit perfectly. Though it’s important to think about things, to think about what’s happening around me, I have to focus, focus, focus on a small number of things and do them with [...]
Voices from the past.
I always had a feeling my life was divided into seperate worlds, living in Sweden and Finland was its own world, as being back here is as well. Yesterday I met Maija again. She used to be the roomie of an austrian girl I got to know in Finland. It felt weird, [...]
A place where light and shadow meet.
Went to the graveyard not far from our house. It’s weird, to me the place doesn’t have anything spooky or frightening. To me it’s an island of quietness and piece. I remember when I was a little kid, I thought only very old people had to die, it was [...]
Schindler, once again.
In his own words: “I hated the brutality, the sadism, and the insanity of Nazism. I just couldn’t stand by and see people destroyed. I did what I could, what I had to do, what my conscience told me I must do. That’s all there is to it. Really, nothing more.”
And generations will [...]
Moonlight Sonata.
“Nature is trying very hard to make us succeed, but nature does not depend on us. We are not the only experiment.”
R. Buckminster Fuller
To a believer called Emily.
I believe.
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Rainbows.
God gave us the colors but forgot us to tell what or even how to paint – that´s our job. Sanna told me this over 2 years ago and I never ever forgot it again.
I believe.
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In necessariis unitas, in dubiis libertas, in omnibus caritas.
We as human beings forget way too often what stands tall above all other things: love. I had a wonderful experience with two strangers in the late evening yesterday. I felt lonely, on my own and remembered I left my car out on the street, went back [...]
Pachelbel’s canon.
God is subtle but not malicious, that’s why I love him.
I believe.
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Fantasia.
I was just listening to Bach, had “air” on a cd in my car and just went through to see what else I had, came up with “fantasia”, amazingly beautiful composition, spreading hope.
I believe.
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What can I do.
I hate to see people I love suffer. It gets even harder if they insist to suffer on their own, even if they have every right to do so. I can just be there for them, tell them they can rely on me, they can trust me.
Know how sublime a [...]
A deep breath.
Never mistake motion for action.
Ernest Hemingway
I believe.
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At the end of the day.
Sometimes it just feels so great to be human. There are no coincidences and at the end of the day it all makes sense in its own special way.
I believe.
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These days.
I was walking around, just a face in the crowd
Trying to keep myself out of the rain
Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
Wondered if I might end up the same
I believe.
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Rain.
The first drops sounded like little bugs trying to get out of the mid-day’s heat. Then it came, warm, clean and wanted.
Rain, feel it on my finger tips
Hear it on my window pane
Your love’s coming down like
Rain, wash away my sorrow
Take away my pain
Your love’s coming down like rain
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May it be.
Mornië utúlië
Believe and you
Will find your way
Mornië alantië
A promise lives
Within you now
I believe.
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De profundis clamavi ad te, Domine.
And he heard me. There are no missed chances, there are only choices to take and choices to make. Loads of people underestimate the power of believing in what you really want to do. Believing in god, life and the choices I am allowed to make has brought me [...]
There’s a full moon rising
Had practice again yesterday, met a friend afterwards and we drove up to the lake to have a drink. I didn’t notice the full moon rising at first, but there it was gracefully glowing above our heads, a slight tint of orange in its shine. I cdouldn’t wait to get home, [...]
A river of tears
i just read a geo special about the first years after ww2, the people, the sorrows and the anger. Right now I feel small. They had nothing, just the knowledge that they survived, no place to go, no place to start from. Today, we want more, more, more, without thinking of what [...]
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
I noticed that my sleeping behaviour has totally changed to what it was like in Finland. There I spent the nights in front of my computer, waiting for the morning’s first sunrays to appear behind the trees down in the yard and they’d slowly crawl over the horizon, orange [...]
My sundown.
mindwork.net finally got its own forum, it’s more out of the box than anything but stil a place where I’d like to pass the torch to everyone of you, you don’t have to register, just point your browser to http://mindwork.net/forum/viewforum.php?f=1 and start talking. do you believe?
I believe.
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Only time
Who can say
Where the road goes
Where the day flows
Only time
And who can say
If your love grows
As your heart chose
Only time
I believe.
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The torch will be passed
Mother Theresa once said that you should never allow anyone to walk away from a meeting with you unhappy. I am sometimes wondering how she meant that, because sometimes the hurt, the pain and the anger we live through by making our decisions, has a cleaning tone, a new [...]
True at first light
“In Africa a thing is true at first light and a lie by noon and you have no more respect for it than for the lovely, perfect weed-fringed lake you see across the sun-baked salt plain. You have walked across the plain in the morning and you know that no such lake [...]
Let her talk about the things you can’t explain
Sometimes the beauty of life comes through in unusual ways. Sometimes it’s just a total stranger telling you, that the discussion you’ve just had, gave him a better insight on something, that it changed him or her in some way or broadened his and my horizon. Hard [...]
email outage.
my provider is fiddling with its DNS servers again, people sending me email might get a “connection refused” error mail, your mail server should try to resend those mails every couple of hours, in the meantime you can reach me at stefan (AT) cc (DOT) jyu (DOT) fi
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change.
Obstacles cannot crush me. Every obstacle yields to stern resolve. He who is fixed to a star does not change his mind.
(Leonardo da Vinci)
i believe.
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the truth is out there.
i had a short but good talk with one of my co-workers. sometimes it just gives you a warm feeling inside, to know someone is sharing your ideals, your visions and dreams. working at the paper means so much to me. day by day new people, new experiences, new puzzles to [...]
it all comes down to you.
started reading another book about why we are how we are, how happiness and sadness are made (yes, made!) and what happens inside us once our emotions kick in. amazing how the human brain works, once a certain situation is associated with a special feeling it gets increasingly harder to [...]
Opposites attract
We got a new working colleague today, she’s studying law in vienna and will stay for a one month internship at the newspaper. It’s weird, I’ve onlsy been there for a month now and they trust me with introducing somebody new to the paper, the company, the values and ideals we share. It [...]
Cause to me to me you’re beautiful
It’s amazing how we human beings think we are only loveable in every which way, if we appear perfect to other people. It’s wron wrong wrong, it’s the big picture that makes us loveable, our little mistakes and failures. Being perfect is not worth striving after, it’s everyone’s combination [...]
A Memoir Where Light And Shadow Meet
“At last we meet again .. I have received no answer, my dear, I do not know why you abandoned me .. But what not even your death or my old age can change is that we are still married, this is how we are before God. I have [...]
all by myself
there are no coincidences in this world, everything has a meaning, i remember talking to sabrina and she exactly knew what i was talking about. i didn’t have to explain or tell, she just knew.
i believe.
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hanging by a thread.
To educate yourself for the feeling of gratitude means to take nothing for granted, but to always seek out and value the kind that will stand behind the action. Nothing that is done for you is a matter of course.
Albert Schweitzer (1875-1965)
I believe.
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