Bali. “This seems a reasonable time to search our souls for some corner where humility resides. Our nation behaves in some ways that bring joy to the world, and in others that make people angry. Not all of those people are heartless to kill us for it, or fanatical enough to die in the effort,…
Read moreAnna begins. he’s talking in her sleep It’s keeping me awake and Anna begins to toss and turn And every word is nonsense but I understand and Oh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing But I’m ready for some changes on mindwork.net. From this day on Emily will contribute to mindwork. I…
Read moreNew beginnings. First of all, thanks to my dear friend Stefan for inviting me to contribute to this. It really is something special and I hope that I can only do it justice. Somehow it is fitting that today I feel like my life is starting again, not that it ever stopped but was rather…
Read moreLast dance with Mary Jane. It’s been a week of emotional limbo. Having Sanna here again just showed me how much I loved her, how much I wanted her to be here and share my new-found spirit for life, work and emotions. We’ve been together for over 2 years now and it’s amazing how well…
Read moreSays she’s close to understanding Jesus. Round here we’re carving out our names Round here we all look the same Round here we talk just like lions But we sacrifice like lambs Round here she’s slipping through my hands Sleeping children better run like the wind out of the lightning dream Mama’s little baby better…
Read moreRound here. Step out the front door like a ghost into the fog where no one notices the contrast of white on white. And in between the moon and you the angels get a better view of the crumbling difference between wrong and right. I walk in the air between the rain through myself and…
Read moreGoodbye to you. There are those days, that pull me down. Those moments that make me believe, that the trail I decided to leave, leads nowhere. But recently, those moments have been more and more covered by believing I once could be someone, I could creat something bigger than this. Whoever stops to learn has…
Read moreIt’s been awhile. And it’s been awhile Since I could hold my head up high And it’s been awhile Since I said I’m sorry In failure and error lies the power to improve, the power to become a better person, a better partner and a better friend. Sometimes I am so bad in learning from…
Read moreA few good men. Our scientific power has outrun our spiritual power. We have guided missiles and misguided men. Martin Luther King, Jr. (1929-1968) Why do we kill all good men, if there are only so few? I believe.
Read moreBist du bei mir. (Be thou with me.) My grandfather’s room is once again filled by the music of J.S. Bach, I started randomly going through my old classical collection and came up with “Bist du bei mir” – inspiring, motivational, caring and full of faith. What would grandad think to see this room full…
Read moreButterflies. Tomorrow’s the “long night of museums” (http://langenacht.orf.at) over here. Can’t wait to drive up to the planetarium here and watch Mars. It’s been so close for weeks now, you can clearly see it shining in clear nights. A slight tint of orange, so far and yet so close. I believe.
Read moreIn that dry white ocean alone. What’s it going to be like? I haven’t seen Sanna since she left Austria after our trip back in mid-June. She’s probably the person that knows me best. She has seen me laugh, cry, celebrate and moan. Will it feel the same? Will it be the feeling that drove…
Read moreImagine all the people. We had our first meeting with the international students of the local University here. It felt great and once again remembered me of my time in Finland. While Mr. Bush is waging wars wherever he believes it fits, people from Austria, Germany, Poland, Chile, Brazil, Finland, Ireland, USA, Japan, France, Italy,…
Read moreWhen we dance, angels will run and hide their wings. Sanna will come here in October, actually she’ll be here in a couple of days. When she told me on the phone, it felt so good. Just a couple of weeks ago I wasn’t sure if I could have this life with Sanna in it…
Read morefinland. When I cry, I close my eyes And every tear falls down inside And I pray with all my might That I will find my heart in someone’s arms I miss you all I wish I was With you now I wish I was I believe.
Read moreAs now can’t reveal the mystery of tomorrow. Sweden voted against the Euro. A democratic decision, that I and all other europeans will and have to accept as it is only a small part of this miracle called european union. I believe.
Read moreSometimes when we touch. I had a blast last night, went out with three of the newly arrived exchange students, one from Ireland the other two from the US. When I left home around 9.15 pm I thought I’d only stay for an hour maximum, I came home at 2.30 am, knowing, that wherever we…
Read moreNo skips guaranteed. Though it’s saturday I had to work, but it isn’t a “have to” in the sense of “I don’t want to”. The job at the paper is exactly the right thing and day after day I feel thankful, I was once again given a chance to listen, to learn and to grow….
Read moreOde to joy. Anna Lindh was swedish, european and a democrat. On Sunday, Sweden and the swedish people will have the chance to show their support for Anna’s european ideals and our common european dream. I join a nation in its prayers for Anna, her husband and their two children. I believe.
Read moreAgainst all odds. Sedan tidigt i morse sitter jag framför teven. Om och om igen visas samma nyheter men det finns inget nytt att meddela. Mördaren är fortfarande på fri fot. Jag gråter. Mordet på Anna Lindh var meningslöst och jag förstår inte varför någon vill skada vårt samhälle på ett sådant sätt. Det som…
Read moreFly Niels. During my time in Sweden I got to know the country as a peaceful, quiet, yet modern and highly developed country. Yesterday in the early evening, swedish foreign minister Anna Lindh was stabbed and killed in a crowded Stockholm shopping center. The attacker remains yet unknown. Authorities suspect the attack to be motivated…
Read moreSo where is the hope and where is the faith. I guess, human beings are basically good and trustworthy. Sometimes I just get setbacks that make me think. Is it me who trust too much, too early or is it this world, that lets its values and all the things that used to mean something…
Read more‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand. Eventually all things merge into one: I moved downstairs into my grandfather’s old room. Made me think of him over and over again. What would he say, if he could see me this very day? He was probably the most defining person of my teenage years: Strict. Caring….
Read moreIn the usual place. Was sitting here in the office thinking about a story we came up with. I was just leaning back in my chair as the clouds lightened up and the sunrays went through the open blinds, straight on my face, soft and warm. Life is beautiful. I believe.
Read moreTell her I’ll be waiting. You’re running with me don’t touch the ground we’re the restless hearted not the chained and bound. I believe.
Read moreIris. Another good day, there’s been loads of them lately. Over the whole day I could feel my energy level rise. Did the world change? did something change inside of me? Sanna is unbelievable, sometimes the beauty of her words reaches right through to my heart:”If I feel you are happy it makes me a…
Read moreColorblind. I see colors again. My life is full of them and I barely noticed. I believe.
Read moreThe long day is over. Feeling tired By the fire The long day is over The wind is gone Asleep at dawn The embers burn on With no reprise The sun will rise The long day is over. I believe.
Read moreI will follow him. Haven’t been able to write a single word in a couple of days, so many things that exhausted me totally. But this is it: a new beginning, a beginning with Sanna, time and me being alone has changed so many things. I thought I’d find my luck on my own and…
Read moreA river runs through it.
Now nearly all those I loved and did not understand in my youth are dead, even Jessie, but I still reach out to them. Of course, now I’m too old to be much of a fisherman and now I usually fish the big waters alone although some friends think I shouldn’t. But when I am…
Read moreWith one hand up, you’ll show them your progress. Franz has a fantastic gift: he’s straight, he’s honest and his advice always seem to fit perfectly. Though it’s important to think about things, to think about what’s happening around me, I have to focus, focus, focus on a small number of things and do them…
Read moreVoices from the past. I always had a feeling my life was divided into seperate worlds, living in Sweden and Finland was its own world, as being back here is as well. Yesterday I met Maija again. She used to be the roomie of an austrian girl I got to know in Finland. It felt…
Read moreA place where light and shadow meet. Went to the graveyard not far from our house. It’s weird, to me the place doesn’t have anything spooky or frightening. To me it’s an island of quietness and piece. I remember when I was a little kid, I thought only very old people had to die, it…
Read moreSchindler, once again. In his own words: “I hated the brutality, the sadism, and the insanity of Nazism. I just couldn’t stand by and see people destroyed. I did what I could, what I had to do, what my conscience told me I must do. That’s all there is to it. Really, nothing more.” And…
Read moreMoonlight Sonata. “Nature is trying very hard to make us succeed, but nature does not depend on us. We are not the only experiment.” R. Buckminster Fuller To a believer called Emily. I believe.
Read moreRainbows. God gave us the colors but forgot us to tell what or even how to paint – that´s our job. Sanna told me this over 2 years ago and I never ever forgot it again. I believe.
Read moreIn necessariis unitas, in dubiis libertas, in omnibus caritas. We as human beings forget way too often what stands tall above all other things: love. I had a wonderful experience with two strangers in the late evening yesterday. I felt lonely, on my own and remembered I left my car out on the street, went…
Read morePachelbel’s canon. God is subtle but not malicious, that’s why I love him. I believe.
Read moreFantasia. I was just listening to Bach, had “air” on a cd in my car and just went through to see what else I had, came up with “fantasia”, amazingly beautiful composition, spreading hope. I believe.
Read moreWhat can I do. I hate to see people I love suffer. It gets even harder if they insist to suffer on their own, even if they have every right to do so. I can just be there for them, tell them they can rely on me, they can trust me. Know how sublime a…
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