Ode to joy. Anna Lindh was swedish, european and a democrat. On Sunday, Sweden and the swedish people will have the chance to show their support for Anna’s european ideals and our common european dream. I join a nation in its prayers for Anna, her husband and their two children. I believe.
Read moreAgainst all odds. Sedan tidigt i morse sitter jag framför teven. Om och om igen visas samma nyheter men det finns inget nytt att meddela. Mördaren är fortfarande på fri fot. Jag gråter. Mordet på Anna Lindh var meningslöst och jag förstår inte varför någon vill skada vårt samhälle på ett sådant sätt. Det som…
Read moreFly Niels. During my time in Sweden I got to know the country as a peaceful, quiet, yet modern and highly developed country. Yesterday in the early evening, swedish foreign minister Anna Lindh was stabbed and killed in a crowded Stockholm shopping center. The attacker remains yet unknown. Authorities suspect the attack to be motivated…
Read moreSo where is the hope and where is the faith. I guess, human beings are basically good and trustworthy. Sometimes I just get setbacks that make me think. Is it me who trust too much, too early or is it this world, that lets its values and all the things that used to mean something…
Read more‘Cause I don’t think that they’d understand. Eventually all things merge into one: I moved downstairs into my grandfather’s old room. Made me think of him over and over again. What would he say, if he could see me this very day? He was probably the most defining person of my teenage years: Strict. Caring….
Read moreIn the usual place. Was sitting here in the office thinking about a story we came up with. I was just leaning back in my chair as the clouds lightened up and the sunrays went through the open blinds, straight on my face, soft and warm. Life is beautiful. I believe.
Read moreTell her I’ll be waiting. You’re running with me don’t touch the ground we’re the restless hearted not the chained and bound. I believe.
Read moreIris. Another good day, there’s been loads of them lately. Over the whole day I could feel my energy level rise. Did the world change? did something change inside of me? Sanna is unbelievable, sometimes the beauty of her words reaches right through to my heart:”If I feel you are happy it makes me a…
Read moreColorblind. I see colors again. My life is full of them and I barely noticed. I believe.
Read moreThe long day is over. Feeling tired By the fire The long day is over The wind is gone Asleep at dawn The embers burn on With no reprise The sun will rise The long day is over. I believe.
Read moreI will follow him. Haven’t been able to write a single word in a couple of days, so many things that exhausted me totally. But this is it: a new beginning, a beginning with Sanna, time and me being alone has changed so many things. I thought I’d find my luck on my own and…
Read moreA river runs through it.
Now nearly all those I loved and did not understand in my youth are dead, even Jessie, but I still reach out to them. Of course, now I’m too old to be much of a fisherman and now I usually fish the big waters alone although some friends think I shouldn’t. But when I am…
Read moreWith one hand up, you’ll show them your progress. Franz has a fantastic gift: he’s straight, he’s honest and his advice always seem to fit perfectly. Though it’s important to think about things, to think about what’s happening around me, I have to focus, focus, focus on a small number of things and do them…
Read moreVoices from the past. I always had a feeling my life was divided into seperate worlds, living in Sweden and Finland was its own world, as being back here is as well. Yesterday I met Maija again. She used to be the roomie of an austrian girl I got to know in Finland. It felt…
Read moreA place where light and shadow meet. Went to the graveyard not far from our house. It’s weird, to me the place doesn’t have anything spooky or frightening. To me it’s an island of quietness and piece. I remember when I was a little kid, I thought only very old people had to die, it…
Read moreSchindler, once again. In his own words: “I hated the brutality, the sadism, and the insanity of Nazism. I just couldn’t stand by and see people destroyed. I did what I could, what I had to do, what my conscience told me I must do. That’s all there is to it. Really, nothing more.” And…
Read moreMoonlight Sonata. “Nature is trying very hard to make us succeed, but nature does not depend on us. We are not the only experiment.” R. Buckminster Fuller To a believer called Emily. I believe.
Read moreRainbows. God gave us the colors but forgot us to tell what or even how to paint – that´s our job. Sanna told me this over 2 years ago and I never ever forgot it again. I believe.
Read moreIn necessariis unitas, in dubiis libertas, in omnibus caritas. We as human beings forget way too often what stands tall above all other things: love. I had a wonderful experience with two strangers in the late evening yesterday. I felt lonely, on my own and remembered I left my car out on the street, went…
Read morePachelbel’s canon. God is subtle but not malicious, that’s why I love him. I believe.
Read moreFantasia. I was just listening to Bach, had “air” on a cd in my car and just went through to see what else I had, came up with “fantasia”, amazingly beautiful composition, spreading hope. I believe.
Read moreWhat can I do. I hate to see people I love suffer. It gets even harder if they insist to suffer on their own, even if they have every right to do so. I can just be there for them, tell them they can rely on me, they can trust me. Know how sublime a…
Read moreA deep breath. Never mistake motion for action. Ernest Hemingway I believe.
Read moreAt the end of the day. Sometimes it just feels so great to be human. There are no coincidences and at the end of the day it all makes sense in its own special way. I believe.
Read moreThese days. I was walking around, just a face in the crowd Trying to keep myself out of the rain Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown Wondered if I might end up the same I believe.
Read moreRain. The first drops sounded like little bugs trying to get out of the mid-day’s heat. Then it came, warm, clean and wanted. Rain, feel it on my finger tips Hear it on my window pane Your love’s coming down like Rain, wash away my sorrow Take away my pain Your love’s coming down like…
Read moreMay it be. Mornië utúlië Believe and you Will find your way Mornië alantië A promise lives Within you now I believe.
Read moreDe profundis clamavi ad te, Domine. And he heard me. There are no missed chances, there are only choices to take and choices to make. Loads of people underestimate the power of believing in what you really want to do. Believing in god, life and the choices I am allowed to make has brought me…
Read moreThere’s a full moon rising Had practice again yesterday, met a friend afterwards and we drove up to the lake to have a drink. I didn’t notice the full moon rising at first, but there it was gracefully glowing above our heads, a slight tint of orange in its shine. I cdouldn’t wait to get…
Read moreA river of tears i just read a geo special about the first years after ww2, the people, the sorrows and the anger. Right now I feel small. They had nothing, just the knowledge that they survived, no place to go, no place to start from. Today, we want more, more, more, without thinking of…
Read moreOn sleepless roads the sleepless go. I noticed that my sleeping behaviour has totally changed to what it was like in Finland. There I spent the nights in front of my computer, waiting for the morning’s first sunrays to appear behind the trees down in the yard and they’d slowly crawl over the horizon, orange…
Read moreMy sundown. mindwork.net finally got its own forum, it’s more out of the box than anything but stil a place where I’d like to pass the torch to everyone of you, you don’t have to register, just point your browser to http://mindwork.net/forum/viewforum.php?f=1 and start talking. do you believe? I believe.
Read moreOnly time Who can say Where the road goes Where the day flows Only time And who can say If your love grows As your heart chose Only time I believe.
Read moreThe torch will be passed Mother Theresa once said that you should never allow anyone to walk away from a meeting with you unhappy. I am sometimes wondering how she meant that, because sometimes the hurt, the pain and the anger we live through by making our decisions, has a cleaning tone, a new beginning,…
Read moreTrue at first light “In Africa a thing is true at first light and a lie by noon and you have no more respect for it than for the lovely, perfect weed-fringed lake you see across the sun-baked salt plain. You have walked across the plain in the morning and you know that no such…
Read moreLet her talk about the things you can’t explain Sometimes the beauty of life comes through in unusual ways. Sometimes it’s just a total stranger telling you, that the discussion you’ve just had, gave him a better insight on something, that it changed him or her in some way or broadened his and my horizon….
Read moreemail outage. my provider is fiddling with its DNS servers again, people sending me email might get a “connection refused” error mail, your mail server should try to resend those mails every couple of hours, in the meantime you can reach me at stefan (AT) cc (DOT) jyu (DOT) fi i believe.
Read morechange. Obstacles cannot crush me. Every obstacle yields to stern resolve. He who is fixed to a star does not change his mind. (Leonardo da Vinci) i believe.
Read morethe truth is out there. i had a short but good talk with one of my co-workers. sometimes it just gives you a warm feeling inside, to know someone is sharing your ideals, your visions and dreams. working at the paper means so much to me. day by day new people, new experiences, new puzzles…
Read moreit all comes down to you. started reading another book about why we are how we are, how happiness and sadness are made (yes, made!) and what happens inside us once our emotions kick in. amazing how the human brain works, once a certain situation is associated with a special feeling it gets increasingly harder…
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