der weg. i kind of promised myself i’d keep this page in english, this time however i’m making an exception for someone who truly knows what loss and gain mean in life: german songwriter and artist herbert grönemeyer. ich gehe nicht weg hab’ meine frist verlängert neue zeitreise offene welt habe dich sicher in meiner…
Read morevisions of paradise. 6 weeks back home. leaving on thursday. figuring the unbelievable beauty of this country, the people i met, the friends i made and the ones i lost. saying, once again, goodbye to those i love and the ones that love me. thinking of a beautiful scandinavian fall, the stories i might tell…
Read moreBeliever. Like a believer We are out to find Like a believer We are living our minds Like a believer We don’t waste any time Like a believer We stand our ground I believe.
Read moreblurry. i ran my first ever half-marathon yesterday. after a coulpe of km’s you stop thinking about the running itself you just do it, i thought about sanna and me, the landscape that was passing by, franz running by my side, i really liked the team-thought we had and i guess both of us had…
Read moregive a little respect to me. by leaving klagenfurt i set a step that changed my world. now that i’m back here, i notice the things that have changed. things here seem to never change, people seem to stand still. i can feel it when i am hanging out with my old friends, not that…
Read morefurther on (up the road). going home, it means so much to me. whenever i used to be home earlier i never realized then intensity of things around me; now when i get to see the places & meet the people again it means so much to me. so much, it’s hard to put it…
Read morehere i am. thinking about the people at home. my dad’s little red cabrio i would love to drive on summer days like this one. missing the people and the time i could be spending with them right now, missing speaking german and kid around with tommy and josh. sometimes i could bang my head…
Read morebrothers in arms. it’s weird how a single image, a single sound can get down inside you, can give you a whole new feeling, can make you sing under the shower. happened to me a couple of days ago watching a movie and the images and the sound formed one perfect union, as if the…
Read moreyou fill up my senses. probably the thing i sometimes missed in my life is that someone told me that he was proud of me, who i was, who i became and what i have accomplished so far in my life. i never got disapproval from my parents but i always felt their doubts, their…
Read morehuman touch. spending my first midsummer here in finland i can still feel the bonfire’s heat on my skin, the rain that ran down my cheeks and the joy i felt surrounded by people i dare to call friends. i spent so much time last week thinking about friendships, the ones i had, have and…
Read moreon top of the world. i ran through the cold rain in pori, just feeling the world around me turn, feeling complete, feeling after all happy. then today i somehow started thinking about my dreams, or better what was left of them. i remember promising myself that i would conquer worlds and change things around…
Read morethis year’s love. sitting in a park in helsinki, i once again face a challenge, something that has always made me step outside of me and go for it, go for the challenge or as franz said, what do i have to lose… i believe.
Read morelearning to breathe. the most amazing thing that technology has brought to me is, that i am writing this posting while i am sitting down at jyvesjärvi (the big lake that jyväskylä is located at). the warm sunrays on my face and the world in my notebook. it’s just amazing how independent we’ve become and…
Read morecrash into me. if you go through a finnish summer for the first time you might feel overhelmed by its intensity, the sun that hardly goes down during the night, the soft shadows it causes in the evening. and if it seems i have been running all my life, i feel i have kind of…
Read moreacross the lines. and then i am back to this world again, a world of people speaking a different language, a world full of people that are different. and then i hate to fail, i would definitly hate to go back to austria and figure i couldn’t make it for whatever reasons i’d come up…
Read morelandslide. settling my mind, waving good-bye to this wonderful country, to its people and the ones i love. (how many more times will i?) went out to the graveyard to see my granddad’s grave. there’s is a bench right down the aisle and i could sit there for hours enjoying the beauty of the silence…
Read morethe world’s greatest. when i create, i create by heart. sometimes the disappointment that today’s world doesn’t seem to have open vacancies for people like me, is overhelming. i thought about all those applications i wrote for jobs in finland and the answers i got. most wouldn’t even take me in for an interview for…
Read morenass (wet) i have these visions that use to come back every now and then, suddenly i have a medlody or an imagine in my head and i know i have heard that specific sound somewhere before or seen those images somewhere. now it’s that movie i remember having heard of, it’s called “nass” (german…
Read moremy sacrifice. the last time i used this title was november 29 th, in my dorm room in skoevde, sweden, the things that have happened in between made me break the rule i kept – never be the same again – never use the same motto for a day. i used it because the feeling…
Read moreFree falling. You gotta love it, this yes-I-can-do-it-whatever-happens feeling. I can let myself go, I got the people I need, the most wonderful friends I could ask for, if those people Sanna, Franz & Tommy wouldn’t be there for me day-to-day, I would never be the person I am and the person I will be,…
Read moreAfter the rain has fallen. There’s one unbelievable smell in the air, the smell of a passed thunderstorm, of clean fresh air, of the fresh-cut grass. I missed getting up and looking out of the window to see familiarity wherever I looked, now being back here, where everything started, I just look around and enjoy….
Read moreWhatever makes you happy. Back in Austria again. Happiness, friends the sounds and smells I missed in Finland have come back to my senses. I started getting really home-sick up there, feeling both lonely and useless at the same time. Sanna made every effort she could and I will be forever thankful to her, I…
Read moretelling stories. meeting adrian here in finland meant a lot to me, and in a way i understand the way he feels about that girl, the way he behaves and the way the situation appears to him. coming to finland was not an easy decision, but once i understood WHY i went, it was one…
Read morewe meet again. to a special friend, wherever she may be: i barely know you as who you are to the world outside, but i do know what sleeps inside you and surfaces in those little moments that make me realize, that the touch of your hand and the small tears that caused those little…
Read morethe second you sleep. i’ll dream of you tonight, being here without you and cracking things down to where they come from, the meaning they have in my life and how i can influence these things. the last couple of days: thinking about the things i have done in my life, my studies, my work…
Read moreflight 404. i surfed around today, basically just chilling and stumbled across some nice piece of webart. it’s basically a story about a plane which disappears under mysterious circumstances. you should really have a look i couldn’t stop reading. Flight 404 i believe.
Read morethe great old man. Try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value. Albert Einstein, again and again i believe.
Read morePeople are always blaming their circumstances for what they are. I don’t believe in circumstances. The people who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and, if they can’t find them, make them. – George Bernard Shaw I believe.
Read morewhoever saves one soul, saves the world entire. i talked to him this night and it felt as he had come back from a remote place and the feeling of not him seing him for such a long time and then hearing his voice, his apologies for leaving me and not coming back for such…
Read moreriver of dreams. i bascially spent the whole last night dreaming of changes and chances. sanna told me i woke up laughing and i even remember that myself. i think i am ready to out there and conquer them all. above all other things my spirit, my will and my hope will carry me. i…
Read more1000 miles away. and then here again, thinking about the country i chose, the people i met, the friends i made and that all just in a span of 2 months, amazing in a way. then the country i left, the people i left behind and the places i miss. during the last year my…
Read morefoolish games. i remember franz telling me that i was some sort of unique conflict avoider. i hate to fight and to debate if i can go around it somehow. i know sometimes a discussion can be like healing rain but then i am sometimes not quite sure if i can make it through discussions…
Read moreand i’m free. i knew the moment would come that i’d just wake up and figure i am standing on my own feet. probably i’ve been standing on those feeet for a long time now but it was just a couple of days ago that i realized that the room that was mine back home…
Read moreif you could see your way. to my dad; i remember sitting in my dorm room in skoevde, sweden thinking about how things were back home, 1500 km south from there. i remember thinking of him, how i missed him and if he missed me as well. by going to sweden my universe got another…
Read morebelieve. i am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. imagination is more important than knowledge. knowledge is limited. imagination encircles the world. albert einstein.
Read morei dare you to move. plenty of time to think on the bus back from a hockey game we had in tampere. welcome to this planet, this weird and yet fascinating place. welcome to existence – everyone’s here, everyone’s watching you now. what happen’s next? i believe.
Read morewhatever happened to amelia earheart. what makes this world wort living in are those people that dare to take a look over the edge of the known universe. people that accomplish things never done before. the motivations may be as diverse as the colors of the rainbow but the make the rest of mankind stand…
Read morehow you remind me. and austria that far and yet so close country is still where it belongs to – close to me and close to my heart. i plan to go and meet some people in skoevde beginning of april it seems my semester in sweden was such a long time ago, and yet…
Read moredon’t stop dancing. Children don’t stop dancing Believe you can fly Away…away sitting here on a beautiful sunday – the sunrays coming through the windows, i really start feeling home here, not temporary like in sweden, but settled, my suitcases stored away and feeling comfortable with what this country has given me and the secrets…
Read more21. a year older. thinking about the past year – wuapaa-austria, my semester in sweden, now finland. it’s been a good year. love carries. i believe.
Read more