Midnight at the lost and found. it kicks in almost every time i come here, i just get totally hyper by being here and after the third or fourth day i fall back into the feeling that things have been standing still here, while i decided to move, the same people, the same, hardly changed…
Read morewe meet again. home, home, home again. the day i left finland, i heard i had been accepted to the university of jyväskylä’s MSc program in information technology, i guess that mens i’ll be there for a while. coming home always feels like i can start right where i left off. overhelmingly beautiful feeling. i…
Read morenothing else matters. i had lunch down in the student’s cafeteria today and passed a guy i know while balancing my tray and looking for a free spot. he just asked the usual “how’s it going” question and my answer suprised even myself.. i just said “going back home in a week and nothing else…
Read morefading away. i just figured my pictures are totally outdated. weird to see my own face change over the years, i wonder how it’s gonna be with 2 grandkids on my lap :) i believe.
Read morewho says elephants can’t dance? thank you lou. your book inspires. i believe.
Read morenote to myself. “Criticism is prejudice made plausible.” I believe.
Read moremy angel gabriel. I can fly But I want his wings I can shine even in the darkness But I crave the light that he brings Revel in the songs that he sings My angel Gabriel I can love But I need his heart I am strong even on my own But from him I…
Read morework in progress. i basically just wanted to hang out with some friends from the university hockey team, turned out to be a late night, but it wasn’t until i came home, that i noticed we had a full moon. i saw it coming out behind the clouds and sitting there in my car, just…
Read moreEmpty stairs. One of the greatest discoveries a man makes, one of his great surprises, is to find he can do what he was afraid he couldn’t do. Henry Ford (1863-1947) I believe.
Read moreDark angels follow me. Yet another way to account for what was happening before the USA went to war: Beware the leader who bangs the drum of war in order to whip the citizenry into a patriotic fervor. For patriotism is indeed a double- edged sword. It both emboldens the blood, just as it narrows…
Read moreCaesarem vehis, Caesarisque fortunam. I always dreamed about going back to ancient Rome. In high-school Latin was one of my favourites and in my mind, I would travel on on a horseback with him, the legions behind him, conquering Gallia. Why do I come up with these things. Yesterday (I couldn’t sleep so I stayed…
Read morehis dreams inspired hope. sometimes i am panicing about my time running out. i know i am only 22, but at my age other people where leading a revolution, inventing something or changing the world in some way. i have dreams, i know what my strengths and abilities are, but is it me or destiny…
Read moregod doesn’t waste a miracle. i watched “the third miracle” yesterday and like with most movies based on some kind of religious plot i ended up having tears in my eyes. i don’t go to church very often (been there last time on christmas eve) but i do believe in god. i believe in him….
Read moreto whom it may concern. one of my co-worker’s girlfriend is pregnant. he told me a couple of days ago and i was just like – wow -, that guy is one year older than me and in a way his whole life will change bottom up. are you ready for a baby or do…
Read morei’ll show you everything. I hope he’s not like me I hope he understands That he can take this life And hold it by the hand And he can greet the world With arms wide open i believe.
Read moreend of the road. so mr. bush is ready to hit. neither does he care about the public opinion, nor the total absence of convincing facts or the u.n. inspectors asking for more time. for him it’s about time to start his very personal crusade. thank god europe has shown, at least in parts, its…
Read morethe sun also rises. it took me two nordic winters to realize what a ray of light is worth. It’s been warm and soft on my skin the whole morning. A little ray of hope, promising a new season, new challenges, new feelings. But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They…
Read moreto end all wars. have you ever asked yourself what is justice? there’s been few movies that changed my way of thinking in one way or the other, “schindler’s list”, because i reminded me of my country’s history that my generation tends to forget, “a river runs through it”, for the simple lessons life teaches…
Read morecome away with me. Come away with me in the night Come away with me And I will write you a song Come away with me on a bus Come away with me where they can’t tempt us With their lies I believe.
Read morethursday’s child. it’s been a long time since i remember crying on my birthday, but this time i did. the loneliness that had accumulated inside me, all came out at once. it’s hard to tell why i felt lonely. for a moment i probably just wished to be home with my friends, the people i…
Read morethe nothing man. looking back on 22 years. sometimes i feel, that with every year the doubts get bigger not smaller. was it good what i have done so far? i guess that’s a question i can only answer myself, and i’m not even sure if i’d know any answer. thanks to god whom i…
Read morethe old man and the sea. Never think that war, no matter how necessary, nor how justified, is not a crime. Ernest Hemingway i believe.
Read moreyellow. i listened to powell’s speech at the UN a couple of days ago. 70 minutes of trying to convince people that saddam needs to be wiped off the face of the earth. yeah, that saddam they were supporting 15 years ago. whenever powell says something, rumsfeld makes sure everybody got the point that it…
Read moretime after time. been sick for a couple of days. high fever and loads of time alone at home to think over things. think about the loved ones we care about. the people that care about us. loads of time to think about life and its challenges. thinking of the 7 human beings that fell…
Read moregod put a smile upon your face. i love those winter nights, when you can literally hear the cold outside. the breeze against the windows. i love to work these nights. hour by hour i recapture my day, i guess it’s some kind of inner peace. sanna and franz have taught me some of the…
Read morethe scientist. Come up to meet ya, tell you I’m sorry You don’t know how lovely you are I had to find you, tell you I need ya And tell you I set you apart Tell me your secrets, and nurse me your questions Oh lets go back to the start Running in circles, coming…
Read moreat the beginning. it was a fraction of a second that decided. sometimes life cracks down to those small things that divide between failure and success. it went by so quick though i had anticipated that moment so much. i needed 10 games with a number of chances to score, but during that little split…
Read moreelsewhere. being thankful for what you are given is one of the most important things ever. if you settle down with what you are and what you have accomplished you are doomed to fail sooner or later. stay hungry in a healthy sense, look up to the stars and know the sky is the limit….
Read morefaded. i watched a docu about the first man on the moon yesterday. we’re the americans bla-blah, we were on the moon first, blah. remarkable however was one astronaut’s statement “we had come all the way and were orbiting moon and yeah i guess it was nice, but the image that caught me and still…
Read morei’ ll remember you. for the great person you were. for the times we shared. you’ve been dead for 7 years now and still you’re alive. for what you made me. for the lessons you taught me. for the love you gave me. for the world you showed me. i believe.
Read moreseven seconds. when we come to face our dreams, feelings and fears we are turned into little children, not knowing what to exspect form the future, not knowing where the path may lead us. i am not sure when i will come to face what i truly feel for some people in this world, when…
Read moreonce again, snow on the sahara. if that’s the only place where you can leave your doubts…when i go back on sunday, there will be loads of people waiting, i however only wait and long for some few and selected ones. i went through the numbers i had saved in my mobile phone over the…
Read moreAnywhere but here. once more going-home time. it’s a a steady rythm now. finland, austria, finland. had our last game before christmas yesterday, i remember sitting in the locker room my eyes close and smiling. people were probably really wondering what was going on. i don’t know, i just felt very happy and complete that…
Read moreme. for people like me that sometimes struggle to know where to start with realizing their dreams, that do everything at the same time and find themselves restlessly searching for their dreams, their goals, re-evaluating and re-thinking all their actions and words over and over, the only thing that stands between us and our dreams…
Read morewalk on. the incredible beauty of a baltic night surrounding me. the shining untouched snowcover outside, a cover that makes you believe you live in some kind of lunar scenery; amazing how everything appears to look softer, friendlier. looking back now, coming to finland was probably the boldest and best decision in my life. it…
Read morehere’s to the crazy ones. i guess all i want to achieve in life is making a difference. being different, take steps off the track, go my own ways. even if it’s just a commercial, apple has said everything i feel and long for with a couple of simple lines. “Here’s to the crazy ones….
Read morewith arms wide open. i like the days that give me a feeling something good is about to happen in my life. i like the days when people enter, or re-enter my life to tell me they are there, they haven’t forgotten about me and they care. i care for these people, more than they…
Read morei shall not walk alone. and i know that he’s watching my every step, the good and bad ones, the timid and the bold ones. looking forward to next summer, the past one being fitted into my dreams and wishes, the things i’ve learned, about me as well as about the people around me. the…
Read morewalk away. talking to one of my friends yesterday made me figure a change in my attitude towards finland. while by the beginning of august i was just making sure i was going to get out of this place as soon as possible, i now have to admit, this country has some kind of “second…
Read morea few words to many. Bare face the truth lies at my feet As you turn away Sometimes silence has a way of making peace i believe.
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