you belong to me. a week that went by in the blink of an eye, but what a week. true happiness, seeing sanna again gave me and my life a huge boost, she´s the only one around here that really knows me (probably she´s the only one worldwide :-) and it felt so good to…
Read moresecret garden. today sanna´s coming to skövde again, can hardly wait – allthought it´s been only 3 weeks since i last saw her i missed her like hell. time goes byso quick – remembering how i got to know her in klagenfurt, how we went boarding with hanna and daniel..long time ago indeed. will i…
Read moreangel. my little brother lying warm in his sleeping back beside me. i love that guy, allthough he can be a pain in the ass sometimes, i just love him for being the person he is and the person he´s going to be some day. i belive.
Read moresuperman. can’t stand to fly I’m not that naive Men weren’t meant to ride With clouds between their knees I’m only a man in a silly red sheet Digging for kryptonite on this one way street Only a man in a funny red sheet Looking for special things inside of me It’s not easy to…
Read moresweden 2001. Only tell me that you still want me here When you wander off out there To those hills of dust and hard winds that blows In that dry white ocean alone Lost out in the desert You are lost out in the desert But to stand with you in a ring of fire…
Read moresnow on the sahara. now i know why. why i was more than restless for the last 2 months, why i could never calm down, sit down and read good book or concentrate on the beauty that surrounds me. why i couldn´t see what was in front of my eyes, why i just couldn´t enjoy…
Read morebach, air. the lake – my lake, is one of the things i miss the most here. nowhere to hide, being vulnerable sometimes. walking there with sanna – how many times did we go there, just to find peace, to have a talk or just to enjoy being together in one place ? i miss…
Read moreout on a small lake. i was driving from the university to the computer shop, realizing that a chapter in my life may have just come to an end. hockey´s been always a big part of my life, actually i´ve played on a team since i was 9 or so. 11 years wow, what a…
Read morebeyond midnight. my senses fully awake. missing that special friend of mine. remember tommy, when we so mad at each other because i went home with the car and left you in the city and everyone felt it was the other´s fault. hehe man we´ve had situations like that, but isn´t it weird how all…
Read moreeverything you want. i don´t know why i stopped writing, but after a long night out, filled with thoughts and dreams, i vowed to start again, just to give my thoughts a little room. now, after being here in sweden for nearly 2 months it kinda feels home, kinda because there´s moments where the only…
Read morealive. I have failed as much as I have succeeded. But I love my life. I love my wife. And I wish you my kind of success. from Jerry Maguire
Read moretime to wonder. out to elisabeth, enjoy your wait, enjoy your wonderful life, you deserve it. love will come to you on silent wings (reminds me of that old tina turner song i used to listen to time after time) – i truly believe that everyone has someone waiting out there. You never see it…
Read moreto the city that never sleeps. standing in front of these towers, i felt small as a kid of 10 could only feel. looking up the sky i remember the miracle of steel and concrete. now, that, in an unbelievable act of terror, 2 of new york´s greatest landmarks have gone, i feel anger and…
Read morenightswimming deserves a quiet night. sitting here, thinking about my future plans, can´t sleep and hardly can stay awake, where is this leading me? Nightswimming, remembering that night. September’s coming soon. I’m pining for the moon. And what if there were two Side by side in orbit Around the fairest sun? That bright, tight forever…
Read morethese days, where the stars seem out of reach. in a way i feel settled here, finally. still doubting if i shouldn´t have gone straight to finland, to stop waiting & longing for completeness. the knowledge that this place is temporary, no matter how much i´m trying to make “home” out of it, tires me…
Read morehere with me. i still wonder how everything seems to be so easy. i can´t believe that í am, where i´m now, that i made one of my dreams come true. that i now live in another country and yes i do miss sanna, i do miss my family my friends, my city, but the…
Read moreskövde. sweden. as if a new life has begun time has gone by so quick. i have started my one term studies at the högskolan i skövde (university of skövde), sweden. we drove here by car and the 20 more hours i could spend with sanna were probably the thing we needed to see how…
Read moredance with the angels. the world around me is hurrying to turn while i wish i could make it stand still for one moment in time. make it stand still to thank all the great people that have given me their support when it came to making decisions, when it came to doubting the things…
Read morefeels like coming home. big news. sanna decided to fly back to austria with me. we got a cheap ticket with the same flight as me and i still can´t believe it that once again we´ll have time to enjoy in klagenfurt before i go to sweden. actually that´s one of the reasons she´s coming…
Read morewatching in amazement. we went to sanna´s parents home yesterday about 100km north of jyväskylä. then on with the boat to their summer cottage. unbelieveable how quiet and peaceful this place is. no cellphones no notebook no internet connection just sitting together having dinner, swimming, sauna, swimming and more sauna. i felt so happy there…
Read morethis one goes out to a real friend. it´s 9.36 am here in finland and after reading trought patrick´s email i´m deeply touched by how important this friendship still is allthough we´ve hardly had the chance to get in touch lately. i read it once, twice and a third time cause his words deserve it….
Read morewhen time becomes history. happily arrived in jyväskylä, finland. asi was now sitting on sanna´s bed looking trough all the pictures that had been taken during her time in Austria, I figured that the times that were fresh in my memory just a couple of weeks ago, has now become a beautiful memory of how…
Read morei am sailing. as i´m writing these lines i´m sitting at frankfurt airport waiting for my connection flight that will take me to helsinki. i can´t believe how fast time went by and now i´m here and i´ll spend the night under the same blanket with sanna again and in a way it seems unreal….
Read morewith arms wide open. i have hardly ever been that confident about my future, because i feel what i do is what my heart wants me to do. a path has become clearly visible and i´m ready and willing to walk that path. taking the right path in your life can make all the difference…
Read morecalling all angels. 4 moons to come and to go. i´ll be leaving austria on wednesday, august 1st 6.20 am, flying to frankfurt, germany – from there on to helsinki, finland. it´s been nearly 5 weeks since i saw sanna, my girlfriend, the last time and through the time of seperation and in a way…
Read moreone love. one life. me and tommy went to vienna yesterday. it was a long planned trip to see u2 on their “elevation” tour and besides that just a great occasion to spend some time with my best friend. i still can´t believe how perfect it went. it took us barely 2 3/4 hours to…
Read moreone moment in time. i terribly miss her, even now, with just 9 days to pass till i´m flying to finland, it seems like ages. in a way i´d want to take the very next flight to helsinki, take the train for another 3 hours and be on her doorstep by tomorrow. sanna´d probably freak…
Read moretwo hearts. beating for each other. this feeling of being complete makes me happy inside out. it´s only a couple of more days till i can see you again, till i can hold you again and believe me i´ve missed holding you more than anything else i´ve ever missed in my life. When the night…
Read morethe great beyond. when i woke up today the first thing i saw was ray of light going straight trough the leafs on the tree in front of my room window. a straight way from the sun to me, to my heart – something that makes it even more worth to wonder about the miracle…
Read moreriver of dreams. the last two days were good. if i could define happiness for myself, i´d say i´m very happy at the moment. once your dreams & wishes and passions are given back to you, you can start to live again. i do think, that visions are the most important things in life. if…
Read moreif god will send his angels. calm inside. i´ve found my inner peace once again, just by thinking of the people i love. i´m thinking of sanna who has conquered my heart and soul in the blink of an eye. i´m thinking of my granddad, who´d hopefully be proud about what i have done so…
Read morein memoriam of oscar schindler. who, day per day, reminds me of the fact, that courage, strenght & will is timeless. “I hated the brutality, the sadism, and the insanity of Nazism. I just couldn’t stand by and see people destroyed. I did what I could, what I had to do, what my conscience told…
Read morei have a dream. yesterday was special in some way. it feels that i did what my heart told me to do, regardless of the difficulties it may cause. i feel happy and relieved cause one of dreams is about to come true, i feel thankful for my boss for being allowed to base my…
Read morewith arms wide open. looking up to the stars makes me feel small. smaller than anything else in this world. what makes me feel small too, is the endless miracle of life. Watch the stars, and from them learn. To the Master’s honor all must turn, each in its track, without a sound, forever tracing…
Read morefull moon rising. a magic light glows in my room. it´s wonderful to see the shape of a coming full moon appearing and disappearing behind the clouds. it´s wonderful to be alive and to be given a life. may it sometimes be hard to be yourself, always be thankful to be given a chance. i…
Read morecolorblind. i listened to the wind in the tree in front of my window last night. amazing. in a way it felt as if i was the only still spot while the world continued to turn. i believe.
Read moreThere’s so many different worlds So many different suns And we have just one world But we live in different ones [Brothers in arms, Dire Straits] The pain makes me stronger. I know the world out there has so much more to give me, if I´m willing to see the beauty of everyday´s little details….
Read moreThe future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. Eleanor Roosevelt
Read moreaway. sleepless – 4 million people surround us – with music, without music, i just doesn’t work that i can get any sleep. sanna the last 4 months with you, were the most intensive time i ever shared with someone in my life. today, it’s the first time there’s no one saying goodnight to me….
Read morelast night on earth. she’ll be gone tomorrow. the months have gone by in a flash of light. she has brought so much joy to my life that i don’t know, where to start to thank her: thank you, for reminding me, that there is beauty in all the things we do day after day….
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