antoine

How could drops of water know themselves to be a river? Yet the river flows on. I believe.

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a little wordpress screw-up

ooops – upgrading to wordpress 2.04 took all my modifications to ulf pettersson’s great modern theme with it. so my flickr stream as well as the technorati include are gone. please be patient, while we’re bringin things back to normal. i believe.

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where the ocean meets the land

I tell myself it would be different now, I wouldn’t treat her that way. I wouldn’t be me if she wasn’t her, and it’s far too late, anyway. ‘Cause she doesn’t exist any more, She doesn’t exist any more. Only inside you the ghost of the love, that is wordless and painful and old. There’s…

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ocean spray

It’s easy to see, it’s easy to see To see only white where colour should be It’s easy to feel, it’s easy to feel But it’s not good enough, even though it’s real Oh please stay away And then we can drink some Ocean Spray Oh please stay away And then we can drink some…

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life as a house

by a very small quote from a very beautiful movie, my eyes were opened just a bit further: “I always thought of myself as a house. I was always what I lived in. It didn’t need to be big. It didn’t even need to be beautiful. It just needed to be mine. I became what…

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i just noticed

that great feelings only need small moments that great fears only need small doubts that great hope only needs a little smile that great pain can be caused by great love i believe.

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it’s a small step, you know

so it’s somewhat official, i got an internship with the carinthian representation in brussels where i will start working on november 6th. it just feels like the the challenge i needed, thought i love my current job. i guess sometimes you just need to get out and fill your mind with new people, new impressions,…

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The Eraser

Please excuse me but I got to ask Are you only being nice Because you want something ??? Because of how you respond Because you’d not end up in this song I never gave you an encouragement And it’s doing the end? The more you try to erase me The more the more The more…

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the right people, the right way.

i had so much fun last night and best of all – it came totally unexpected. christoph a guy whom i got in touch with on openbc is spending his last days here before returning to germany (and continuing onwards to australia) called me last night and asked me to hang out with him. first…

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it’s about change, stupid

“each of us puts in one little stone, and then you get a great mosaic at the end.” (alice paul) – i put in yet another stone by making the decision to move abroad once again. things are somewhat on the run now, but it’s starting to look good. yes – i will leave (at…

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thank you, Al.

i had the pleasure and honor to do an interview with al jarreau, r&b-, pop- and jazz-grammy award winner, scat-voice and believer. i will translate his words as soon as possible. Beten für den richtigen Weg Al Jarreau gastiert heute Abend in der Burgarena Finkenstein. Ein Gespräch über Gott, über die wichtigen Dinge im Leben…

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America the beautiful

It already seems like it was many years ago but it was only 2 weeks ago that I was finally at Crater Lake, and with my dear friend Carine, just as we had always planned it. Whether in the clear, bright light of a summer’s day or lit by the delicate hues of the sunrise,…

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finland

i came to our summerhouse 4am on tuesday morning, after a long and emotionally tiring day. there was so much light, you really couldn’t tell the difference between night and day. it was a weird feeling to be in finland again, last time i was here six months ago in winter. now it is summer, beautiful and warm summer….

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use sunscreen

yes, there is beauty sometimes. Wear sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy…

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blue sky blues

Blue sky when you gonna learn to rain? And let yourself go blue for once And let go of the weight you’ve been carrying In this house, no one goes to sleep for days, Its like were working on a mountainside Trying not to slide, Into the ocean. I believe.

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to my tonttu

But would north be true? Why should I? Why should I cry for you? Dark angels follow me Over the godless sea Mountains of endless falling For all my days remaining I believe.

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Minun Sydämeni On Särkynyt

Kuule kuinka se sanoo jätä lapsenkasvosi tähän paina kätesi multaan jää odottamaan valonnousua murhe tässä kuin köyhyys kuin lupaus autiomaan kangastusten kalkki eikä kipu mene pois Kirjoita se hiekkaan hiekka pitää sanansa kirjoita se virtaan vesi matkaa kotiinsa kirjoita se ilmaan linnut nousevat siivilleen kirjoita se muistoihin ne haarautuu kuin tie Katso missä on viisaus…

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berlin, berlin

oh yeah one more thing: even if people sometimes still give you weird looks if you’re austrian and rooting for germany we still had our share of the fun. and probably it was more than soccer, the joy, the feeling of meaning something to the world again is just freely floating through germany and really,…

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the good old times

it was just a weird moment today, i drove back to the city from an interview and came to a crossroad. the traffic lights were out, so a cop was taking care of the traffic. i’ve probably never ever seen somebody taking a job so seriously as he did, slowly moving his hands in opposite…

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bruno, the bear

it’s kind of bizarre but german and austrian media have been full of reports about bruno, a bear that has been strolling around the austrian-german border for some time now. well to make things short – they shot him yesterday. the thing that makes me think is not only the media hype but the whole…

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if you read between the lines

the hardest thing ever is to understand that what you are able and willing to give is sometimes not enough – it feels like failing in one way or another and the hurt and pain that come with it sometimes make things not seem worth striving for. i believe.

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to my friend

a friend of mine called me today, crying. the closest person in her life had let her down, and she did not know what to do. she is the nicest person that i know, and she was so hurt that it hurt me too. sometimes it is just really really hard to understand life. Ylpeinä…

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but heroes often fail

When you reach the part where the heartaches come The hero would be me But heroes often fail And you wont read that book again Because the endings just too hard to take Listen to it sung by Johnny Cash on American V. You will understand, what it means when heroes fail. I believe.

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even when it rains

i loaded so many things on my shoulders during the last weeks – why? because i can’t say no, because i like to do things myself instead of putting them on someone else’s shoulders. but i have to change. i can’t do everything at the same time by myself. i just can’t. i suffer, my…

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stolz, ganz ohne rosen

Gehör ich hier denn noch dazu oder bin ich längst schon draußen? Zeit nimmt sich den nächsten Flug, hab versucht ihr nachzulaufen. Bin doch gestern erst geboren und seit kurzem kann ich gehn. Hab mein Gleichgewicht verloren, doch kann trotzdem gerade stehn. In meinem Kopf ist so viel Wut. Gestern Nacht konnt ich nicht schlafen….

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in the heart of europe

brussels was definitly worth the trip. not only because i instantly liked the city but also by the fact that there you can actually feel what the european union is all about: cooperation, working across borders, growing together. on the other hand the union has major problems communicating its work. people in europe don’t connect…

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flying with a smile

when it comes to flying with austrian airlines, there is one simple rule: don’t do it. unless you really think your life needs some excitement. today i flew from klagenfurt to vienna with a connection to brussels. and yes, it happened again. they lost my luggage. if it’d be the 1st, 2nd or even 3rd…

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god bless you

i went down to the irish pub yesterday to grab one final beer before i left this morning – julian, the owner, sent me off with a fairly common phrase “god bless you” – and it kind of triggered something inside me, thinking about the past 24 hours, my job and the opportunities it gives…

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In case you didn’t know…

…Mr. Cocker will tell you. Said the fight to make ends meet Keeps a man upon his feet Holding down his job Trying to show he can’t be bought It takes every kind of people To make what life’s about Every kind of people To make the world go ’round Someone’s looking for a lead…

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Guantanamo

the us government today claimed that the three suicides that occured in the prisoner’s camp at guantanmo bay where a “clever act, a pr-stunt”. oh my god, how far has this world come, how far have the united states come? the so-called war on terrorism can’t be won at guantanamo, but by changing this world…

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welcome to this planet

i know it’s a cold and weird world but after all one well worth living, welcome to planet little marco and congratulations to my friend and now mother lee-anne sackett in down under. i believe.

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commercial journalism – reloaded

“bild”, germany’s best selling tabloid did it again and probably gave one of the best examples how commercials can be nicely “blended” in with content. in bild’s case on page one. no joking. and we are talking about a newspaper with about 5 million readers each day. so much for putting trust in the media,…

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a taste of things to come

austria will be electing a new government in november. november right. well heinz-christian strache’s right-wing national party has entered the battle already with “battle for austria” posterlights. to understand the situation better: the former austrian freedom party (fpö) split into the now “old” fpö in jörg haider’s “alliance for the future of austria” (bzö): so…

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footprints in the sand

one night i had a dream. i dreamed i was walking along the beach with my Lord. across the sky flashed scenes from my life. for each scene i noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to me, and the other to my Lord. when the last scene of my life flashed…

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music for the soul

It’s been another long week where I feel like every moment is spent working towards another deadline. One of those weeks where the sheer magnitude of the task ahead can occassionally freeze you in fear, rather than just letting you get on with the task at hand. Like so often before it’s music that is…

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who we are

found this really nice good morning tune by amos lee. and since it’s been some rocky days it’s nice to have someone, in this case amos lee, to tell you to keep your feet on the floor and understand who you are and who not. Some times we forget what we got And who we…

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The murderer is always Turkish

German tabloid “Bild” once again showed how to give a story the right twist. After two young guys reportedly stabbed a man in Berlin and were arrested shortly after, “Bild” ran an article, describing their “southern decent” and naming them as Murat G. und Nasir L. Authorities shortly after however denied that the arrested persons…

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Der Panther

Sein Blick ist vom Vorübergehn der Stäbe so müd geworden, daß er nichts mehr hält. Ihm ist, als ob es tausend Stäbe gäbe und hinter tausend Stäben keine Welt. Der weiche Gang geschmeidig starker Schritte, der sich im allerkleinsten Kreise dreht, ist wie ein Tanz von Kraft um eine Mitte, in der betäubt ein großer…

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One Moment in Time

Abbazia di Rosazzo/Italy. The last days were an emotional rollercoaster, italy and the symposium at the abbazia di rosazzio were both beautiful and tiring – then the weekend took a huge emotional toll and now it’s hard to tell where to go though i never doubt that every problem, every relation has a solution just…

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Mama Africa

“Age is getting to know all the ways the world turns, so that if you cannot turn the world the way you want, you can at least, get out of the way so you won’t get run over” -Miriam Makeba

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