mindwork

Yesterday I did an interview with cartoonist Gerhard Haderer, who is regularly contributing to the german magazin “Stern” and the Austrian weekly “Profil”. In the evening he signed his new book for me and asked me what I would want to look like in a drawing. I asked him to try whatever he thought of…

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This is how it works You’re young until you’re not You love until you don’t You try until you can’t You laugh until you cry You cry until you laugh And everyone must breathe Until their dying breath No, this is how it works You peer inside yourself You take the things you like And…

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…I am in an aggressive mood today … I will be laid back and calm again… but I reflected on the past this morning, listening to hatebreed´s “I will be heard”… “Now is the time for me to rise to my feet Wipe your spit from my face Wipe these tears from my eyes I’ve got to take…

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the last days and weeks were some of the most quiet in the last years. quiet and peaceful in a way i seemed to have forgotten. “we can’t remember anymore what it means to let go, to really relax”, i was told in an unlikely place. and i noticed something else: the more quiet things…

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it’s been some time since i wrote about a bad experience i had when dropping my grandmother at her doctor’s office. well yesterday i started believing again, in one way or another. sitting next to me in my hairdresser’s shop was an old lady, aged anywhere between 70 and 80. you could tell her hearing…

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Listen to me, don’t walk that street There’s always an end to it Come and be free, you know who I am We’re just living people We won’t have a thing So we’ve got nothing to lose We can all be free Maybe not with words Maybe not with a look But with your mind…

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… in brussels. and time is runnig out, there are a million things on my head right now and not having a plac ein brussels is still one of them. it seems the majority of people renting their places in brussels wannt to do it only with a life-long contract. so if you know sombeody…

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Crossing the Austrian Border by car last Monday I felt a bit weird…looking on my navigation sytem while heading for Klagenfurt… almost like playing a Warcraft II – Level back in the 90ies… the area has been already explored but everything is overshadowed by the fog of war –  you don´t know where your enemies are until they…

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“Whenever we encroach on the natural world, we crop the boundaries of our own existence as humans, cut off our fields of solace and sensation. Vistas, textures, odors and sound fade and then disappear. In destroying wildness, we deny ourselves the full extent of what it means to be alive.” – Edgar Wayburn Happy 100th…

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isn’t it weird how we associate ourselves with “things”. let me give you an example, yesterday my leasing company sent me a letter that my contract is about to end and that it’s time to decide what to do with my car (of course i will keep it). and then i started thinking back to…

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My little sister turned 26 yesterday and if I stop to think about that, I feel kind of old, even though I’m not. We had a great night out on Saturday which got me thinking about how I celebrated my own 26th birthday. It was strange to remember that it was in Linz, with my…

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okay this world is full of surprises – i went to the virtual “polling booth” for the upcoming austrian elections. well see for yourself (translated it’s the socialist, green party, communists (!!!) and conservative middle..) i believe.

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i’ve always been miserable with money. honestly i don’t know why. probably because i started working early and was always used to having more money than anybody else my age. and on the other hand i keep telling myself that i invest my money in good things. things that last like my digital camera or…

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i had so much fun at work yesterday, though there were piles of things to do in my desk. i actually had planned to take the day off but then i figured i had to start working some things off. well it was a good decision to go there, being with my colleagues not only…

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my friend got a call from a friend of hers. her husband had a bike accident, they flew him over to the AKH in vienna where he’s undergoing surgery as of now. as the doctors put it he will most likely be paralyzed head downwards for the rest of his life. they just had a baby….

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And I wish God would send me a word send me something Im afraid to lose Lying in the heat of the night like prisoners all our lives I believe.

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Yesterday, even I had to laugh at the absurdity of the last few days. As if I am part of some bizarre cosmic joke I’m not party to, or it is just something sent to test me, my week went from bad to worse yesterday. It started when I blew a tyre on my morning…

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“If you gamble everything for love You gonna be alright, alright” and I still believe that

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Whenever I don’t know what else to do, I ride. Tonight I almost couldn’t because to get on the bike got me thinking about just what I was trying to avoid, but I knew no other option, so the bike it was. In the hope that the pain in my legs might burn away the…

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This morning in one brief moment my world came crashing down around me. I want to keep it all together, to try and be strong but I’m lost in a daze, frozen in time and feel like nothing I know makes any sense any more.

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you are one of the most complicated people i know on this planet. but then you are always there for me when i need you, you care more than anyone i know, you care in your own special way and though i sometimes refused to come see you, you were always in my heart. here…

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Blue sky when you gonna learn to rain? And let yourself go blue for once And let go of the weight you’ve been carrying In this house, no one goes to sleep for days, Its like were working on a mountainside Trying not to slide, Into the ocean I believe.

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you: i don’t know…i would want to know as well…my butterflies..are there..but scared..it is all different..i am afraid always afraid i will lose it somehow me: and i am afraid i will never find it again i believe.

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Since 8 nights I´m sharing bath + kitchen + livingroom with Stefan … it´s Männer-WG-esque … like back in the days in Hannover and Aachen and South-Carolina … only with less dirt and a bit more of daytime-occupation … but it´s still Corona + Pringles + a tiny bit of male trashtalk … well… after all that´s…

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after a long time (way too long) i am introducing christoph to mindwork. well not much to say as he will speak for himself, but i’d put him into the believer category. in one way or another :) i believe.

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I’m facing one of the bigger challenges in my life, just because I’m sometimes chaotic and sometimes as well really stupid in neglecting things. I still believe.

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“…for me chemistry represented an indefinite cloud of future potentialities which enveloped my life to come in black volutes torn by fiery flashes, like those which had hidden Mt Sinai. Like Moses, from that cloud I expected my law, the principle of order in me, around me, and in the world…I would watch the buds…

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I met someone from my past this week and like it usually is in Hobart, there are so many common connections it is hard to work out how we had been strangers for so long until now. Not that any of this really matters in the end and right now I’m just glad that we’ve…

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With only one round left, we’re holding down 2nd spot on the ladder and all things goes well I would rate my team as serious title contenders. Why then am I sick of hockey and for the first time ever, I actually don’t really care whether we win or not? As I pondered this very…

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There are some days when I wonder if I really chose the right career and for a brief moment I will even consider giving it all away. Sometimes I wonder if I’m really cut out for research and other days I despair at teaching. Not today though. This afternoon I escaped to my office for…

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Maybe…but for me right now, happiness is new CDs. 137 mins of new music and the whole evening ahead of me. Life is good.

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five minutes ago our right-wing governor jörg haider gave an interview to the austrian broadcasting operation ORF, stating he’s pushing “for a chechen-free” carinthia. what have we become? I believe. [tags]Austria, Carinthia, Klagenfurt, Haider, Chechen, Chechens, Chechenian, BZÖ [/tags]

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i’ve been busy writing about a fight that evolved between local people and Chechen refugees in my hometown. It all ended in a huge fist-fight on a playground which took ten policemen to be ended. and now of course public opinion is likely to start swinging into the wrong direction. What people don’t see is…

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“so..nevermind..you are good..” thank you, i sometimes need people to tell me that as well. i believe.

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I’ve played team sport almost my whole life. I’m competitive in almost everything I do, so sport is no exception. However, today I was reminded that no matter how much I want to win, I always want a fair game. As a coach I also do everything I can to teach my team that they…

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what i still forget – though i should finally have learned – is to tell people what i really think. way too many times i keep things inside me. but hiding them doesn’t make the bad feelings disappear. you just forget about them until they re-surface in a place you wouldn’t have expected them to….

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Where ever you are I hope you’re happy now I’m caught in a dream and I cant get out I’m caught in a dream I’m caught in an endless dream I believe.

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i took my d50 for a little ride, looking for the perfect shot. but pictures are like words, if you are trying too hard to sound educated, entertaining and witty in the end you never do. at the end of my trip, just as i had put my camera away – i found beauty in…

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