feels like coming home. big news. sanna decided to fly back to austria with me. we got a cheap ticket with the same flight as me and i still can´t believe it that once again we´ll have time to enjoy in klagenfurt before i go to sweden. actually that´s one of the reasons she´s coming…
Read morewatching in amazement. we went to sanna´s parents home yesterday about 100km north of jyväskylä. then on with the boat to their summer cottage. unbelieveable how quiet and peaceful this place is. no cellphones no notebook no internet connection just sitting together having dinner, swimming, sauna, swimming and more sauna. i felt so happy there…
Read morethis one goes out to a real friend. it´s 9.36 am here in finland and after reading trought patrick´s email i´m deeply touched by how important this friendship still is allthough we´ve hardly had the chance to get in touch lately. i read it once, twice and a third time cause his words deserve it….
Read morewhen time becomes history. happily arrived in jyväskylä, finland. asi was now sitting on sanna´s bed looking trough all the pictures that had been taken during her time in Austria, I figured that the times that were fresh in my memory just a couple of weeks ago, has now become a beautiful memory of how…
Read morei am sailing. as i´m writing these lines i´m sitting at frankfurt airport waiting for my connection flight that will take me to helsinki. i can´t believe how fast time went by and now i´m here and i´ll spend the night under the same blanket with sanna again and in a way it seems unreal….
Read morewith arms wide open. i have hardly ever been that confident about my future, because i feel what i do is what my heart wants me to do. a path has become clearly visible and i´m ready and willing to walk that path. taking the right path in your life can make all the difference…
Read morecalling all angels. 4 moons to come and to go. i´ll be leaving austria on wednesday, august 1st 6.20 am, flying to frankfurt, germany – from there on to helsinki, finland. it´s been nearly 5 weeks since i saw sanna, my girlfriend, the last time and through the time of seperation and in a way…
Read moreone love. one life. me and tommy went to vienna yesterday. it was a long planned trip to see u2 on their “elevation” tour and besides that just a great occasion to spend some time with my best friend. i still can´t believe how perfect it went. it took us barely 2 3/4 hours to…
Read moreone moment in time. i terribly miss her, even now, with just 9 days to pass till i´m flying to finland, it seems like ages. in a way i´d want to take the very next flight to helsinki, take the train for another 3 hours and be on her doorstep by tomorrow. sanna´d probably freak…
Read moretwo hearts. beating for each other. this feeling of being complete makes me happy inside out. it´s only a couple of more days till i can see you again, till i can hold you again and believe me i´ve missed holding you more than anything else i´ve ever missed in my life. When the night…
Read morethe great beyond. when i woke up today the first thing i saw was ray of light going straight trough the leafs on the tree in front of my room window. a straight way from the sun to me, to my heart – something that makes it even more worth to wonder about the miracle…
Read moreriver of dreams. the last two days were good. if i could define happiness for myself, i´d say i´m very happy at the moment. once your dreams & wishes and passions are given back to you, you can start to live again. i do think, that visions are the most important things in life. if…
Read moreif god will send his angels. calm inside. i´ve found my inner peace once again, just by thinking of the people i love. i´m thinking of sanna who has conquered my heart and soul in the blink of an eye. i´m thinking of my granddad, who´d hopefully be proud about what i have done so…
Read morein memoriam of oscar schindler. who, day per day, reminds me of the fact, that courage, strenght & will is timeless. “I hated the brutality, the sadism, and the insanity of Nazism. I just couldn’t stand by and see people destroyed. I did what I could, what I had to do, what my conscience told…
Read morei have a dream. yesterday was special in some way. it feels that i did what my heart told me to do, regardless of the difficulties it may cause. i feel happy and relieved cause one of dreams is about to come true, i feel thankful for my boss for being allowed to base my…
Read morewith arms wide open. looking up to the stars makes me feel small. smaller than anything else in this world. what makes me feel small too, is the endless miracle of life. Watch the stars, and from them learn. To the Master’s honor all must turn, each in its track, without a sound, forever tracing…
Read morefull moon rising. a magic light glows in my room. it´s wonderful to see the shape of a coming full moon appearing and disappearing behind the clouds. it´s wonderful to be alive and to be given a life. may it sometimes be hard to be yourself, always be thankful to be given a chance. i…
Read morecolorblind. i listened to the wind in the tree in front of my window last night. amazing. in a way it felt as if i was the only still spot while the world continued to turn. i believe.
Read moreThere’s so many different worlds So many different suns And we have just one world But we live in different ones [Brothers in arms, Dire Straits] The pain makes me stronger. I know the world out there has so much more to give me, if I´m willing to see the beauty of everyday´s little details….
Read moreThe future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. Eleanor Roosevelt
Read moreaway. sleepless – 4 million people surround us – with music, without music, i just doesn’t work that i can get any sleep. sanna the last 4 months with you, were the most intensive time i ever shared with someone in my life. today, it’s the first time there’s no one saying goodnight to me….
Read morelast night on earth. she’ll be gone tomorrow. the months have gone by in a flash of light. she has brought so much joy to my life that i don’t know, where to start to thank her: thank you, for reminding me, that there is beauty in all the things we do day after day….
Read moreLife is a series of experiences, each one of which makes us bigger, even though it is hard to realize this. For the world was built to develop character, and we must learn that the setbacks and grieves which we endure help us in our marching onward. Henry Ford (1863-1947)
Read moregood listeners are the last people, others like listening to.
Read moreanother saturday morning. time passes by so quick. i got my letter of acceptance from the university of skövde yesterday – i was just staring at it for a couple of minutes trying to figure what it really meant to me to go away from this place for nearly 6 months. when we came back…
Read moreExcept for the boy in the belfry He’s crazy, he’s throwing himself Down from the top of the tower Like a hunchback in heaven He’s ringing the bells in the church For the last half an hour He sounds like he’s missing something Or someone that he knows he can’t Have now and if he…
Read morewhen i left you in the morning, you looked like the most adorable being in the whole world. i looked at you for a minute or more. and probably, allthough you were asleep, you noticed, that for me, it was the hardest thing to leave you there, warm under the blanket, while i had to…
Read moreSpread love everywhere you go, first of all in your own home….let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God’s kindness in your eyes, kindness in your warm greeting……Mothere Teresa. motto for my life…and every day i say it to myself and go about my day…
Read moreSometimes an angel will appear in the most unlikely places and in the most unlikely form, but the beauty of their hearts can be read by all…….and they will be forever imprinted in our hearts and minds
Read moreAs for courage and will – we cannot measure how much of each lies within us, we can only trust there will be sufficient to carry through trials which may lie ahead. Andre Norton
Read morehome – spent the entire day in venice, italy – it’s just a 2 1/2 dive from my place – the city was packed. it’s practically impossible to see the beautiness of this unique city when there’s people everywhere. appearantly some of them are just there, to be able to say that they have been…
Read moreokay – i give up. whenever i come to the conclusion i know what will happen next, the opposite does. looking down on yesterday´s lines, it´s nearly unbeliveable it was me who wrote them. they seem distant and unreal in a way. definitly a topic i have to spend some thoughts on…. yesterday, in the…
Read moreI went to the lake. Just sat on one of the old wooden benches, watching people pass by. During this moments of grief and anger, asking myself why I can´t just forget about it all, it appears in a rather ironic light to me, that I´m reading Graham Greene´s “the end of the affair” at…
Read moreGod is a comedian playing to an audience too afraid to laugh. Voltaire (1694-1778)
Read moreSometimes the world seems to stand still. Amazed I look around. People stare. People stare at me. Looking right into my eyes. Then time goes on. The shadows disappear. Chilled I look up to see a full moon,…. rising.
Read moreA thirteen-year-old today told me today “…I do think it´s the temperature that influences people´s souls, no not to the temperature outside, it´s the temperature of your heart…” can you believe me, I´m out of words. And I know you exist. I know you are standing at some corner, out of breath, ´cause running away…
Read moreMy dreams & wishes & passions and hopes are out there with you. Wherever you may be.
Read moreIf you can’t feed a hundred people, then feed just one. Mother Teresa I wish I could find that one person, you can´t believe how much.
Read more…just a couple of days someone told me “…perhaps we were meant to meet” – I was so touched by these words from someone I barely knew. It made me go to tears straight away. Probably because this isn´t easiest time of my life, probably because I was in a blue mood anyway, I just…
Read moreCharacter may be manifested in the great moments, but it is made in the small ones. Phillip Brooks
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