waiting Watching… The sun going down on me Waiting… To finally get over this thing Holding… Onto what ever comes along my way, this way Breathing the air, too cold and too hard for me -lyrics by Killer: Watching – Waiting I am waiting for Stefan. Seems to take ages before he is here. Waiting…
Read moreThere’s beauty in believing. So people keeps asking me why I sign everything with “I believe”. It’s quite simple really, technically it’s part of a song by creed – When you are with me I’m free, I’m careless, I believe. I don’t think I’m very religious in a sense that I go to church on…
Read moreWhen the violence causes silence. We must be mistaken. Where were you when 160 people died on a sunny spanish day? Why did you look the other way when senseless violence ripped them out of their lifes and took them away from their loved ones? Last week’s attack on spanisch trains are just one more…
Read moreAccidents can happen to anyone. Even me. Last Wednesday we had blizzard like conditions. I was leaving the house of a high school student that I tutor (algebra II) and I live very close to him so I decided to go home. I could still see, it wasn’t a complete white-out. I figured that if…
Read moreHow can I love you When you’re so far away? How do I hold on To all the memories? I can’t remember With all the time that’s gone by The words that you’d spoken Igniting feelings inside I find it haunting When I see you in my dreams I miss your smile I miss your…
Read morecome on up for the rising. it’s amzing how some things are equal wherever they happen. love for example. many faces and still the same thing. missing someone in your life – right now all i can do about sanna, is to tell people about her. what i feel and what i am afraid of,…
Read moreA free voice. We’ve had regional elections here yesterday. It was the first time I could vote at home. Not only was it the first time in my life I could be in the middle of it as a journalist, but also to make use of my democratic right to vote. To express what I…
Read moreOnly time can heal…But change can help to speed up the process Not so much solemn left inside me, but much more joy that has been waiting to come out for so long. I am a happy girl once again and I love every second of it. All the fighting is gone, and it’s never…
Read moreThat’s the way it’s gonna be, little darlin’. you start counting days. and recount. and count them once again. i’m so eager to go. see sanna, my friends, finland. see the people that are so close, yet so far away. can’t wait to see mikko, get a taste of my old life. walk back to…
Read morethank you and goodbye. wany gretzky once said “i owe everything i have to the game. the game owes everything it has to the fans”. yesterday was my last competitive game ever. we lost the third game of the regional finals and though it wasn’t the outcoming we expected or the best game i ever…
Read moreblank mind. Bunnyhole is virtually empty. Everything is packed, empty rooms around me. Me sleeping in between the mess. The mess of my mind and the things around me. I handed in my thesis for publishing today, packed my stuff and closed a lot of other things in my mind as well. It just felt…
Read morea lovely day. yesterday was good – i had three stories to write and it was a perfect day. a day when you do not have to construct or make up what you want to write. the words were all there, i just had to put it down. it was all in my head, i…
Read morethe journey is everything. watched jerry maguire again and though tom cruise is far away from being one of my favourite actors i still love that movie. i love the simple philosophy it bares: be closer, start thinking about the guy next to you once again. i did an interview for an article yesterday, drove…
Read moreunwell. All day staring at the ceiling Making friends with shadows on my wall All night hearing voices telling me That I should get some sleep Because tomorrow might be good for something Hold on Feeling like I’m headed for a breakdown And I don’t know why But I’m not crazy, I’m just a little…
Read morehonesty A friend of mine called me. Big problems in the relationship. The other one not being honest, playing funny games, cheating a bit with this and that. He really was down. Losing that relationship would mean a whole world to him. He really has no one else in this country. No one. He would…
Read moremy immortal. You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I’m bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won’t seem to heal This pain is just too real There’s just too much that…
Read morewhere will you go. i asked myself that question a million times last night. it’s not been last night that was too much. it’s been accumulating over the last days, weeks, months. it’s your way of ignoring all those principles of loyality, trust and understanding. it’s you constantly proving that you just don’t care. it’s…
Read more10 red roses (10 reasons to love you) 1. You are the biggest loveable bunny in the world. 2. You are miserable with money, always running late, having a big mess around you: I love you because of those little annoying things as well. 3. You are the most difficult and grumpiest bunny at times….
Read more23. A year ago I was sitting home in Jyväskylä, crying on my very own birthday. Today, I don’t remember the actual reasons anymore, what I however do remember is, that it was then, I started making a decisions that I just wanted to go home. Be with the people I loved and liked. A…
Read moreOnly Hope There’s a song that’s inside of my soul It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again I’m awake in the infinite cold But you sing to me over and over and over again So I lay my head back down And I lift my hands and pray To be…
Read morethe fighting is too much I hope that the influence I give is a positive one. I want to change someone’s world for the better, I want them to feel some of the happiness I can share. Not many people realize the effect they can have on another person, positive or negative. This is especially…
Read moreNot me, us. Slowly a dream is coming true. Mindwork is evolving into something more than just a website with my thoughts on it. Mindwork should be minds meeting and melting. There’s so much to change here, Em, Shaun & Sanna – a short bio of each one – and more more more more minds…
Read moreVisions. Today the front page of mindwork.net says it all. No matter where I’ve been or what I do, I am continuously amazed at the way people are essentially the same everywhere I go, how we can all have the same vision for the future despite such different experiences of the past. Today I found…
Read moreBehind blue eyes. But my dreams They aren’t as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That’s never free No one knows what it’s like To feel these feelin’s Like I do And I blame you No one bites back as hard On their anger None…
Read moreBecause it’s always been a matter of trust. Isn’t trust like a building? Takes ages to build and seconds to be ruined to rubble. Sometimes I just don’t know where to stop, where to stop feeling and start thinking, because though your heart creates trust, your head sometimes can save it. Might take some time…
Read moreI never made promises lightly And there have been some that I’ve broken. Just chatted with a special person. A person that has made such great impact on my life. Because with her, I failed. I failed in every which way I could ever fail. And it was probably that failure that makes me love…
Read moreAround the world in 1297 days. I’m finally back home now, and it does feel like home. Although it is strange to be in a familiar place with so many unfamiliar things, I now realise that the longer I stayed away, the more I was distancing myself from the things I love and remember. Right…
Read moreA life yet to live. it’s getting spring here (amazing, huh?), yesterday we had around eight degrees. unbelievable i was just wearing a shirt and a light jacket. this is gonna be a good year, i can feel it. sanna is moving here. i got my job, my studies are doing okay, loads of plans,…
Read moreit could happen to anyone We have got a young trainee at the travel agency where I work every now and then. She didn’t come to work for couple of days and we started wondering, what is wrong with her. Doesn’t she want to? Is there something wrong? Then came the phone call: her parents…
Read moreand she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land. i keep forgetting about it, but life is beautiful. la vita é bella how the italians say. you just need to look closer and at the same time farther above all those little obstacles life holds for you. i’ve been so busy…
Read moreCalm I was so scared for awhile that it worried me. I didn’t know what road to take and how far to walk the path that I would choose. It is amazing how at ease someone can make you feel just by talking. The closest friends are those that you love unending and keep with…
Read moreincredibly beautifull Went down to Jyväsjärvi to skate. It seemed like half of the city was down there at the lake: families, friends, lovers, kids, old couples… everyone enjoying the beauty of a winter Sunday: snow, ice, sunshine, cold. Happy people surrounded by beauty. This is my home. This is where I come from.
Read more20.000 meilen über dem meer. 20.000 miles above the sea. feels like coming home. flying to finland once again march 17th. it’s weird, it’s been my home for nearly 1 1/2 years and now i am going back. back to where i had some of the lightest and darkest moments of my life. where doubts…
Read morealone brake my world hold me tight till I fall asleep don’t ask me why don’t tell me later do it now I ask missing you
Read moreNow is always the right time. I am becoming restless. Everything moves around me. My life is changing: finishing my studies, moving out of my flat, changing countries… actually I think even more things are changing inside of me. Nothing is like it used to be. It feels like I am in front of countless…
Read moreI see trees of green, red roses too. I woke up to the sunlight coming through the blinds. I quit hockey yesterday, it was too much. I lost the feeling of going out there and just playing, because it was fun. I totally lost it. I think I’ll go out skating on one of the…
Read moreTougher than the rest. Another goodbye, another one leaving. I went through Stefania’s photo collection today. She took about 200 pictures in 4 months here in Austria. And I? Sweden? Finland? The only memories I have (besides a rather small amount of pictures) are in my heart. How the summer of 2001 smelled, how the…
Read moreGod’s memo Just hold on, Don’t let go, You’re reaching so high, But it’s not the farthest you’ll go. You can touch the stars, Or the universe itself. But never be too scared, To ask me for help. I’m here for support, In everything you do. Just never give up, I’m walking beside you. I’ve…
Read morethank you It has been one of those days you don’t really want to have: first my car got broken, then my bike, no money in my pocket, there is a misunderstanding with phone bills; extra 80 to pay, -25 degrees outside, and so on. Not really days you are dreaming of. And of course…
Read moreI’ve been waiting. Silently my girlfriend Sanna has joined the ranks of mindwork.net. It’s now four of us (Patrick has decided to not post anything yet): Emily, Sanna, Shaun and me. I like the direction this is taking, from god creating lists to australia day. From silently flying away in your dreams to the thoughts…
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