Australia Day. I love to travel and see new places and right now I am here in Dublin with both my sisters. I know that I should be just enjoying the moment, but I am restless. Itching to get home, to start my new life now that I feel that the old one is ended….
Read moreThe List I heard a story last night about a list that God has. The list contains two columns. On each side is a name and across from that name is the person they were created for. God rips this list in half and that separates the people. He then tears the list into tiny…
Read moreflying in the air I was flying the other night. It was incredibly feeling: so free, so happy, so full and complete. After all the longing and loneliness I have felt complete and being balanced. I have been able to feel love. And the most important thing was, that I wasn’t alone in my dream….
Read moreSag es laut. (Say it loud) I don’t think I am studying the right thing. How can I be a good business student if my head isn’t filled with numbers and figures but with words, sentences, stories. Being a joujournalist is my destination, I know that if something in mankind’s history really changed everything, it…
Read moreI can shine even in the darkness “I am thinking of you and Austria every single day. Getting ready, already anxious. In a way it’s coming back.” Sanna I believe.
Read moreAn unchained melody. Kelly’s gone. It’s only know that I’ve understood that the same old wheel started spinning again. Ultimately the wheel that drove me away form home, just so I hadn’t to be part of it. Some of the best folks I ever got to know where all the international students I’ve seen coming…
Read moreI miss you. Deeply. You know that things are different now, Since you came into my world. You’ve completely overtaken me, No longer a solitary girl. I feel things I’ve never known before, And I wonder how I survived. Being without something beautiful, All that you’ve given to my life. I know it may seem…
Read morethe universal sense of goodness I have been thinking the whole day, whether there is universal sense of goodness existing. Is there a common need in human nature to produce good and avoid bad things? Reading newspapers makes me really wonder. Violence, violence, violence. Every human being wants to be treated with dignity and equality….
Read moreAbout violence. Therefore, there are five different traits, that are dangerous in general. Those who are ready to die can be killed; those who are intent to living can be captured; those who are quick to anger can be shamed; those who are puritanical can be disgraced; those who love people can be troubled. -Sun…
Read moreAshes to ashes an dust to dust. Jan. 18th, grandad has been death for 6 yours now. Time passes. Season come and go. Before I went to Finland, I spent nearly a whole afternoon at his grave, just sat there on a bench in the weak warmth of a midwinter’s sun. It was porbably one…
Read moreSnow falling on cedars. Have you ever watched a single snowflake from the very first moment you could see it until it silently hits the ground? Must have been nearly an hour I spent at the window watching them over and over aqgain. It was probably one of the most peaceful moments in the last…
Read moreUnerfahrene bekommen Einsicht, Mägde und Knechte haben Visionen Ich überwache diesen Staat tagtäglich und offen gesprochen ich finde er versagt kläglich Denn er versteht nicht die Sprache, die wir hier sprechen Und alle paar Minuten bricht er frei nach seiner Wahl ein Versprechen. Vetuscht seine Kriegsverbrechen Verlangt von seinen Bürgern zu blechen Nur der Herr…
Read moreThe good people. It’s funny how you can lead your life, seemingly completely fulfilled, with everything you need then it takes just one person to come along and mess it all up. You thought you had it all together, that you didn’t need anyone more, then all of a sudden someone comes along who makes…
Read moreWow. I never knew it would hurt this much to be come back home. I’ve spent almost the past two weeks with someone that I connected with in such a way that I never knew was possible. Amazing. I’ve left so much of me behind. The colors of my world have all changed, everything looks…
Read morePerfection. I guess what I’m really searching for, is the perfect moment. “No… But I think a man cannot know his destiny. He can only do what he can, until his destiny is revealed.” I believe.
Read moreTruth in advertising. To simply live life should never be a guilty pleasure. – seen on a billboard at 51st and Broadway
Read morePerspective. Everyone else keeps asking me awkward questions like: -Are you excited to be going home? -Are you sad to leave? -Are you scared/excited about the new job? but all it took was a 6 year old to put it in perspective. No awkward questions, but rather all she wanted to know is will I…
Read moreThe long last goodbye. I like walking by myself but it can also be a dangerous business because sometimes it gives me too much time to think. Right now I have no choice. My bikes are at the shop, getting ready for shipping and my car is getting a final bit of work done before…
Read moreSilence is your deepest fear. 2004. Nearly three years since I got to know Sanna. I was 19 back then. Just started university, amazing how time goes by. Three years ago I had a feeling the world couldn’t be too small for me, now I know it can’t be large enough. There are choices to…
Read moreAll drains lead to the ocean. To my dad. Wherever he may be and whenever he may be reading this. I’m proud of who you are and what you’ve become. I just think I am not able to say it. We all long for love and acceptance and still it’s so hard to express it….
Read moreAnticipation. I am getting ready to go. Two more days for me to endure and then I’m off. It seems like I should have forever to wait yet this is all just around the corner. I am nervous and anxious and calm all at the same time. It is a crazy feeling. The plane ride…
Read moreInner smile. My family has a tendency to create desasters at any big occasion available. Birthdays, christmas, new year’s eves seem to be the most favourite of them. Sanna got a full-force taste of it all yesterday. I have always been between two worls. Christmas for example has always been two-split. For 23 years I…
Read moreLa Vita è bella! After the homesickness recently, somehow the last two days have chased all those bad feelings away and everywhere I look I am reminded of just how wonderful life is, wherever I am. Today I spent Christmas Eve with just a few people: one of my housemates, a friend I have known…
Read moreThe joy of cooking. Even after almost 2.5 years, America is a strange place to me. We might share the same language, but in the end I am not convinced that we share the same culture. Never is this so evident as when food is involved. Don’t get me wrong, the food in this area…
Read moreAround the world and back again. I used to think that the longer I was away from home, the easier it would get to cope with not going home for the holidays. However, no matter how I try to forget what it going on, everywhere I go I am confronted with it, the shops are…
Read moreTurn around, say goodbye, to what is gone. Sann’s arriving tonight and it will either mark a new beginning or an end. I do love her. It’s decision making time now and for my part, the wait is over. I don’t want to and can’t wait any longer. What I need is the same commitment…
Read moreColorblind. I am ready I am fine I am covered in skin No one gets to come in Pull me out from inside I am folded and unfolded and unfolding I am colorblind Coffee black and egg white Pull me out from inside I am ready I am fine I believe.
Read moreFinals. Whoever quoted ‘hell week’ must have been talking about college finals week. I just finished my last test today and it took me three hours. I am thankful it is over but dread finding out how I did. Even if I think I did well, there is still some part of me that harbors…
Read moreRays of the sun. “Below him was the multitudinous river, and, where the rock had parted it around him, big-grained vapor rose. The mini-molecules of water left in the wake of his line made momentary loops of gossamer, disappearing so rapidly in the rising big-grained vapor that they had to be retained in memory to…
Read moreAnd he shall wipe away every tear from their eyes; This post has only one single purpose. To tell Sanna how much I need her here. How much I envy those couples that can happily walk home after a hard working day. It’s not only the girl I’m missing, it’s the friend I miss most….
Read moreDisengagement. Turn your face to the sun and the shadows fall behind you. – Maori proverb
Read moreIt has been too long. I’ve missed being able to come online. I’ve been sick for the past week and a half. I thought I was being smart and got a flu shot. Well low and behold I would be the one to react to it. I’m finally looking on the upside and feeling a…
Read moreAnd Anna begins to change my mind. She’s talking in her sleep It’s keeping me awake and Anna begins to toss and turn And every word is nonsense but I understand and Oh lord, I’m not ready for this sort of thing Her kindness bangs a gong It’s moving me along and Anna begins to…
Read moreA long december. Looks like we’ll soon be able to welcome a new member onboard mindwork.net. Uhm, where should I start. I met Patrick a long long time ago (I guess 1997?) online. We both were quite new to the net and I think both fascinated by the possibility of just chatting online with people…
Read more17 minutes. That’s how long it usually takes me to ride home from work. That’s about half the time it takes to drive, or one fifth of the time it takes to walk the whole way. It’s about more than the time it takes though, but rather about what these 17 minutes, when I am…
Read moreLied Vom Kindsein. It’s been a strange, but wonderful weekend…While some others in my life want to focus on me leaving this place, right now I just want to live life more than ever. To feel alive and savour every sublime moment. Now that I finally have a copy of one of my favourite movies,…
Read moreThe art of how to fall. Thank you Rebekka. I’m not sure if it was for the small place, the soft guitar chords or your lyrics, that sent shivers after shivers down my back. It felt so authentic, so natural. I guess neither you nor the crowd wanted to be in any other place that…
Read moreLove actually is everywhere… On Sunday, I was privileged enough to see the movie ‘Love Actually.’ The way the movie started out brought tears to my eyes. It talked of how love is really everywhere, not just a specific kind of love but every kind. The setting was the Heathrow airport in London. There were…
Read moreBrothers, sisters where are you now. How free are we? Liu Di, dubbed the “Steel Mouse” might say “we aren’t at all”. The 23-year old Chinese student had been imprisoned for nearly a year after she had been accused of being a “cyber-dissident” by her country’s government. Freedom of speech is relative, you see. I…
Read moreNow the sun’s gone to hell and the moon’s riding high. Once again thinking of Finland. The good and the bad times I had there. Was having dinner with a co-worker last time. It’s amazing once you slowly make a transition from being an outsider at the job, in your hockey team or wherever. You…
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