the memories came back: new york, 1991, i was ten by then. the wtc, the towers. i felt small. then skövde, sweden, september 2001. again, i felt small and that this world is vulnerable. now london, 2005. what next? rome, kopenhagen, berlin? i hope that god or by which name you want to call him…
Read morea story bound to repeat itself.
Iniqua numquam regna perpetuo manent. Unjust rulers do not reign for a long time. isn’t it werid how things in this world are repeated over and over again. life is going on but is it going anywhere? are we improving at all? or are we just dead in the water? so many questions, so few…
Read moreabout conjunctives.
i could, would, should. sentences filled with excuses, old ones, new ones but excuses anyway. quite frankly it’s sometimes tring to live in a world filled with excuses. it makes me tired and sad. but then probably this is what life feels like sometimes: tired and sad. i believe.
Read moresleep where have you gone?
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain. Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a…
Read moreabout hurt and how it feels.
It felt like a punch in the stomach. Right there, where it really hurts. Hello? Is there anybody in there? Just nod if you can hear me. Is there anyone home? Come on, now. I hear you’re feeling down. Well I can ease your pain, Get you on your feet again. Relax. I need some…
Read morelife’s little lessons.
live a little, learn a little. a thoughtful weekend with one big learning: it’s a small world and people, wherever they may be, are haunted by similar problems, cheered by similar joys and united by little things. things that last: love, friendship, honesty. thanks for everything. i believe.
Read moresit down have a drink.
been searching for “new” music again and stumbled across NordicLounge – perrrfect music for a relaxing day off – started going through their tunes in the morning and was addicted by afternoon. reminds me of sweden & finland and so much more. i believe.
Read moreabout the joy of cooking.
for the first time since i moved here in november i had my family over. to understand my little story you might want to know that in my family cooking is not just cooking. it’s a divine act. mostly blessed with nothing but excuses why food didn’t turn out the way it did. the food…
Read morewhat is .mac for anyway?
even if i am a loyal apple customer (love my powerbook 12″) one of the things that has never gotten to me was the .mac service they offer. i can’t see anything useful in it, especially having my own host with 1 gig of storage, close to unlimited badnwith, unlimited email and and all for…
Read moreStay hungry. Stay foolish.
if it comes to strategical leadship steve jobs of apple might be one of the most entertaining characters in the valley. he’s been called about every 5-letter-word in the book by former employees and been praised as the valley’s high-tech hero – recently he held a remarkable speech at stanfordÄs graduation ceremony. stay hungy, stay…
Read moreSi vis pacem, para bellum.
If you are looking for peace, prepare for war – the romans said. I’m quite a peaceful person but I have a bad feeling that this one is going to lead to an all-out war. The graveyards are full of broken heroes, bhut if justice is at stake, it’s worth a try. I believe.
Read morehanging by a moment
man am i in a blue mood – lifehouse up’n down. tough week and still happiness inside. way to go. i’m living for the only thing i know i’m running and not quite sure where to go i don’t know what i’m diving into just hanging by a moment here with you there’s nothing else…
Read morea happiness’ worth
it’s the small moments that make up for my day. during lunch break i went down to nordsee, to grab some seafood. the lady behind the counter was about 40 and terribly nervous – her “i just started” sticker told me why. she neither got me the right thing nor the right change in the…
Read moreso where did we stop?
every time i make a decision it turns out that instead of peace of mind, i get yet another decision put up in front of me. i think i was born to investigate, put thoughts into words, it’s always been my dream. there are no coincidences – that’s why i became a journalist and then…
Read moreWhat if?
It’s been a long time but this time I really am back. Like so many other times in my life, when things get busy or feel like too much I shut myself off and turn inside to the things I believe I can control. The older I get I’m not convinced that I’m necessarily getting…
Read morenever again.
thank god the headache is gone. bernd had his bachelor-party: a hangover waiting to happen. was good to have a couple of beers with franz & the bunch again. got to stop spending money again now that i’m at break even. i believe.
Read morei am history.
have you ever seen discovery history’s commercial? “ich bin geschichte” – i feel so insignificant sometimes because i swore to myself i would change the world and what did i make of it yet? sometimes it feels i can’t even change myself. Wer wird in tausend Jahren unsere Zweifel noch verstehen ? Ihr von morgen…
Read moremonday mornings…
How happy is the blameless vestal’s lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! Each pray’r accepted, and each wish resign’d I believe.
Read moreserver change completed.
i transferred mindwork.net to a new hosting provider – the old one went down every once in a while, email was never spooled through and and and. everything should be working fine again – if you notice an error anywhere, please let me know at stefan (dot) jaeger (at) mindwork (dot) net. thanks!
Read moremut.
i was just watching about the fall and rise of austria in the last century. and yes – even if we as a nation failed in 1938, i think that at least the majority learned its lesson. after ten years of occupation we guaranteed our eternal neutrality – and in 1956 during the hungary crisis,…
Read moretiny little babies…
now that everyone around me seems to get babies one of the quotes I’ve just always loved: A baby is a God’s opinion that life should go on. (Carl Sandburg) I believe.
Read moresprechen sie deutsch?
just one simple thing i have been thinking about for eternities: mindwork has always been in english, at least since i started writing regularly in 2001. i was really starting to think about switching to german, at least for my own posts (of course the rest of you is welcome to keep posting in english)…
Read moredie einzige hoffnung.
it’s making me angry and sad at the same time. while most of us are celebrating the 60th anniversary of the end of world war II, nazi-germany and the liberation of its concentration camps some are unable to open their eyes – the result: 3000 neo-nazis meet in berlin to protest against the “lies about…
Read morestefan & the finns…
riitta had a ticket for the finland – sweden game in the world championships so i tried hard and got another one for the game. i hadn’t been in innsbruck for ages and the both of us had a blast there (with minor difficulties on the way :_) – now home again, happy, safe &…
Read morethe tiger is around…
okay so i am a machead – i had to gettiger (a.k.a macosx 10.4) already last weekend. upgrade from panther (a.k.a macosx 10.3.9) went flawless, though i should have gone for a clean install. spotlight works nicely, though i liked quicksilver’s way of being able to choose the first found iteam with a simple hit…
Read moreany more beautiful?
“Everything is determined,” Einstein once declared, “by forces over which we have no control. It is determined for the insect as well as the star. Human beings, vegetables, or cosmic dust – we all dance to a mysterious tune, intoned in the distance by an invisible piper.” Can you describe life in any more beautiful…
Read moreprinciple of joy.
so even car makers can be right every now and then – really though it’s going to take quite a while before i can afford any bmw i still like their “principle of joy” commercial. it’s not that bad. really. and what’s wrong about enjoying some things? The world is one and it’s starting to…
Read moreonly if.
axel has joined the ranks of bloggers (and macowners!) wopeee – it’s a be-first trackback for me – go and say hi at: http://emergence-lounge.typepad.com. i believe.
Read morehistory stands still.
Siegfried Kampl – member of the BZÖ and former Bundesrat today resigned from his office under public pressure. Kampl called deserters of the German Wehrmacht “murderers of their comrades” and criticized how Ex-Nazis “were hunted down” after the end of World War II. BZÖ-Spokesman Uwe Scheuch called Kampl “flawless” even after public pressure started to…
Read morearound and around…
when i boarded the intercity in jyväskylä yesterday i had the hangover of my life, definitly no beer for one euro parties for me in a long time. but it was my goodbye evening in jkl so i guess it was okay. sorry to the people that had to subsequently share the flight from helsinki…
Read moredue south!
Wie die Dinge sich wohl anfühln’ wenn sie denn noch ganz wärn’ Ein Lebenslauf gebastelt mit den Händen eines Tanzbären Und gesucht und gefunden In der Einsicht verbunden Du gibst was du brauchst ich glaub’ was ich seh’ Endlich mal etwas das ich fast versteh’ I believe. And home is, where my heart is.
Read morethe world doesn’t end in JKL…
even if it seems so everytime i comel to finland. aside from sanna, i left so many things back here. friends, feelings, fears – it’s going to feel weird to go back home and figure i am living there now instead of here. but then again the best thing is, that someone there is actually…
Read morevery, very late.
So pieni – in one way or another this is for you and only you. i guess you will figure. Remember: Minä näytän vielä ihan samalta, vaikka minusta on hajonnut palasia. I might not be the same anymore. But change in life is inevitable. And even if it must be sometimes so painful for you…
Read moreohne momente dazwischen…
it’s been the weirdest feeling i experienced in a long time. 2200 kilometers from home i go to a bar – and suddenly somebody shouts my name. it went like cold shivers down my back and ultimately it felt like, that i had actually been living here, that i existed here and that i left…
Read morenach norden, nach hause!
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life It’s like I just stepped outside when everything was going right And I know just why you could not come along with me This was not your dream but you always believed in me… Another winter day Has come and gone away in either Paris…
Read morea new home…
just watched discovery history showing how germany raised again after the war. and i figured that people back then had a lot more than we have today, though they had nothing: a dream of a better tomorrow. when did we stop dreaming? i believe.
Read morejustice
The love for justice that is in us is not only the best part of our being but it is also the most true to our nature. Cesar Chavez. I believe.
Read morethe car that’d drive me anywhere…
i am not sure if you know it. the feeling of remembering a great great time. its smell, its taste, the butterflies in your stomach. there’s a song that will always remember me of finland, the time i spent there, the sunsets i saw and rides i took somewhere, somewhen. You got a fast car…
Read moreleise und deutlich raus hier…
saw kettcar playing in vienna – it’s a one of a kind band that would probably even make grönemeyer turn to mekka. we had a blast jumping around like little kids with axel. yeah – i should probably scream and shout more often. in a positive sense though. Die Haustür hinter dir. Und vor dir…
Read moreer ging, ohne sich umzudrehen…
john paul is dead. may he rest in peace, wherever he may be now. i played bach for him. Bist du bei mir, geh’ ich mit Freuden zum Sterben und zu meiner Ruh’. Ach, wie vergnügt wär’ so mein Ende, es drückten deine lieben Hände mir die getreuen Augen zu! i believe.
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