i’m going to finland once again. finally. really.. cause to me – in one way or another – it feels like coming home. i believe.
Read moreder wind über den klippen…
Minä näytän vielä ihan samalta, vaikka minusta on hajonnut palasia. I still look the same, though some pices of me are missing. Im Spiegel der Puderdose betrachtete ich mein Gesicht und stellte verwundert fest, dass es unverändert war. Aber ich war ja auch nicht völlig in Stücke gegangen, nur zwei kleine Teile waren zerbrochen. I…
Read morewo meine spuren wohl hinführen…
You can go your own way Go your own way You an call it Another lonely day You can go your own way Go your own way I believe. Let me walk my own way.
Read moremitternacht im fundbüro…
i am in a weird stage of anticipation of things to happen. if i can’t take something then it’s uncertainty. i’m rather thrown into something head first then having to wait, slowly grinding into it. and the thing is, they don’t know me – the way i really am – though i might seem arrogant…
Read moredie wollen es doch nicht anders…
when i got back to work and told about the philippines and the level of poverty i had seen in some places there were some things said that really disturbed me. a colleague of mine said “well i’ve seen poor countries but believe me, those who want to make it, make it. the others just…
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Yesterday I went to a compulsory seminar about how to be a better supervisor to my graduate students. As were reminded, when these guys start, we sign a legal contract with them, so we’re all obliged to get it right. What really hit me though was what was said about dealing not just with the…
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i am pretty sure you have heard about the case of the girl in florida who’s been in coma for years. besides that case i started digging deeper into apallic syndrome, which would be actually the right terminology. it’s a world full of darkness with only random rays of light. and suddenly you start to…
Read moreich und wieviel von meinen freunden…
em and shaun both seem to have re-discovered the joy of writing. seems things start swinging mindwork’s way again – started feeling a bit lonely here. i’ve turned into an early bird lately, been getting up between 6.00 and 7.00 – for a guy who used to sleep through 9 easily quite a change.and something…
Read morePressure
This is my last semester at this school. I have eighteen credits (12 is considered FT), work forty plus hours a week, and still have a social life. I need every class that I am taking. I can feel the pressure that surrounds my doing well this semester but it is almost as if it…
Read moreAge is relative
A long time ago my sister asked our grandmother how old she felt in her head. She must have been about 85 at the time but she said that in her head she was still 32. After spending the last few months not wanting to turn 30 when the day actually came around there was…
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i guess the trip was too short, i had a feeling i would have neede a couple of more days. just to understand the fraction of our small world i was seeing – i gotta go back there, that’s for sure. right now it feels i am suspended between two steps waiting for others to…
Read moreand i am leaving..
the philippines were amazing and frightening all together. sitting at manila airport waiting for the flight that will take me back to my world. thinking about some decisions that will most likely change my life for a good part. but it’s time to make them. more later. i believe.
Read morewhere the ocean meets the land…
boracay is simply breathtaking. went for a walk at the beach while the sun slowly set and painted the sky in colors i have yet to believe. real beauty is when the mind can’t understand what the eyes are witnessing. i believe.
Read moremy name’s J.R….
the best thing about going somewhere else are the people. being here on the philippines once again assured me that this little blue planet is a lot smaller than we think – as long as we remind ourselves that we all are just human beings despite of the color of your skin, the look of…
Read moresign here, please…
i am paying everything here in manila by credit card, i think the peso is bound to the dollar and the dollar well – sucks right now. since i can’t really re-produce my own signature clerks really frown at me anyway – i am nothing compared to this guy. i believe.
Read moreyou know…
you slept to long if: below’s sign has been under your hotel room door for three straight days indicating i wasn’t even realizing i only got up at 2 in the afternoon.
Read morewait, it’s a clone.
how stupid does a company have to be to do an _exact_ copy of another one’s just launched product. hagga_blog has all the news from cebit. wondering how long it’s going to take apple to rip those “supershuffle” posters off the walls… i believe.
Read morea new beginning.
as much as i can’t say if switching to a new life is as easy as switching to a new blog, i am trying to do it. manila and the impressions of the last days have probably altered the way i look at things forever. because all of a sudden i noticed, that things i…
Read moremanila calling. i lost track of the times i have been saluted, greeted with “hi sir”, and “thank you sir”. we drove by some of the poorest districts in the embassy’s limousine – feels like being a celebrity in a country full of poverty. i believe. then again everbody seems to be in a shopping…
Read moreasia. never in my life before i have witnessed such a contrast of unbelievable wealth and total poverty. manila on a first look is not for the faint of heart. it’s a face of the world i have never seen before. i believe.
Read morea whole new world. it’s been a long time since i saw herbert and it’s been evern a longer time since we sat down and talked. sitting at vienna airport – a 14 hour flight in front of me, i feel – yes, i really do – happy. i believe.
Read moreFreedom My life has taken on so many changes as of late. Adam and I split back in November but we decided to still ‘date.’ If that isn’t the best excuse to keep someone around for convenience, then I don’t know what is. Lately, I have been distancing myself from him. We are to remain…
Read moreDie Liebe der Charlotte Gray. why do i have to be stupid and afraid of making a fool of myelf? duh! i got so close, and yet i am so far away. if you can read my thoughts, help me with this one. please. i believe.
Read morevolle distanz. it’s just between you and me. though we’re not exactly on speaking terms right now, please help her – you know what i mean. she believes in you.
Read moreWeglaufen geht nicht, das ist mir klar. since i started writing at mindwork i ended all my posts with one line: i believe. i had a feeling there was a contract between him and me, god and stefan. tonight i felt there was no contract. it felt you left me, when i needed you most,…
Read moreDie längste Zeit, die du verbringst. went to vienna just by myself, a weekend away from klagenfurt is just what i need now. and man did i have a blast yesterday evening, met astrid of esn whom i hadn’t seen in a long time (a year or so) – it generally feels just woohoo to…
Read morea million souls. got my hepatitis vaccination for the philippines today. 70 euro spent to protect my life. 70 euro i paid easily out of pocket. a million people every year don’t get that chance. they die of hepatitis b. think about it. i believe.
Read morethomas is wrong. cause love lasts. i am so sure of it sanna. it just lasts. because deep inside of me, feelings never changed, they don’t change now and the never will change – i will probably relearn love, but then one place deep inside my heart was, is and always will be yours. cause…
Read moreand you feel like never before. Everywhere you go you shout it You don’t have to be shy about it, no And you’ll never be alone Come on now show your soul You?ve been keeping your love under control Sanna has a new boyfriend. It’s good, I have to admit to myself. It’s good there’s…
Read moreit’s all about love. it’s quite disturbing what a movie can do to you. i watched people dying of broken hearts, dying of loneliness, dying of the love it is all about – and i was wondering if i might be one of them some day. dying of a broken heart, if that at all…
Read moreone crazy week. two days after my birthday my uncle invited me to come and visit the philippines with him, i’ll be gone from march 12th until march 19th, never been to asia before and getting totally excited. just a month after that i am going to … finland! can’t wait to see mikko and…
Read moreno coincidences. we celebrated my birthday yesterday – and i played orfeo’s aria to mom, she nearly started crying, telling me it used to be granddad’s favourite piece of music, remembering listening to it when she was a kid, probably sitting on his lap. there is no coincidence and me and him, grandfather and grandson…
Read moreA year in the Antipodes. Today was the first day of the new academic year and the day of my first real lecture. It wasn’t until last week that I realised that this means one year since I came home. It’s gone so fast that sometimes I feel like I’ve missed so much of it…
Read moreWhat will I do? Che farò senza Euridice? Dove andrò senza il mio ben? Che farò? Dove andrò? Che farò senza il mio ben? Dove andrò senza il mio ben? Euridice! Euridice! Oh Dio! Rispondi! Rispondi! lo son pure il tuo fedele. lo son pure il tuo fedele, il tuo fedele. Che farò …? Euridice!…
Read more24. my birthday was way too hectic to be celebrated. i waited for acall ro sms from sanna, but it seems i have to understand, that to her this is not even a friendship anymore, that i am not even someone you would call on his birthday. it plainly hurt. in addition we had our…
Read moreconcerning wanderers. taken from “mona lisa smile”: Not all who wander are aimless. Especially not those who seek truth beyond tradition, beyond definition, beyond the image. Now I am not sure if I am one of those, wandering aimlessly between worlds – but in some certain moments I try to look beyond the image and…
Read moreblacky the cat. mom just called me. they had to put blacky to eternal sleep. the veterinary said there was nothing he could do about the tumor they discovered today. blacky never complained, we even didn’t notice until today. he was the cutes kitten ever. i’ll miss him. i believe.
Read moreblinding lights. driving back from villach you can see over the lake. it’s a perfect time now, the ice covering it slowly melting in the spring’s first sun, it looks like a gigantic mirror, spreading the sunlight against the mountains. it was a tiny moment of completeness that showed that beauty is actually everywhere. i…
Read moredresden. 60 years ago british and americans bombed dresden, a city full of refugees, wounded, sick. there was no reason. no military value. no sense. at least 35.000 were literally vaporized. the power of the heat-bombs would burn them to ashes before they noticed. as much as other cruelties during the war, dresden can never…
Read moreThere’s no way I can talk myself out of this tonight. Tired but happy. Did a great story with the local police on drunk driving. Spent the last night in the seat of a police car. Watched them pull out some drunk drivers. Now I won’t throw the first stone, but I just don’t get…
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