Only Hope There’s a song that’s inside of my soul It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again I’m awake in the infinite cold But you sing to me over and over and over again So I lay my head back down And I lift my hands and pray To be…
Read morethe fighting is too much I hope that the influence I give is a positive one. I want to change someone’s world for the better, I want them to feel some of the happiness I can share. Not many people realize the effect they can have on another person, positive or negative. This is especially…
Read moreNot me, us. Slowly a dream is coming true. Mindwork is evolving into something more than just a website with my thoughts on it. Mindwork should be minds meeting and melting. There’s so much to change here, Em, Shaun & Sanna – a short bio of each one – and more more more more minds…
Read moreVisions. Today the front page of mindwork.net says it all. No matter where I’ve been or what I do, I am continuously amazed at the way people are essentially the same everywhere I go, how we can all have the same vision for the future despite such different experiences of the past. Today I found…
Read moreBehind blue eyes. But my dreams They aren’t as empty As my conscience seems to be I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance That’s never free No one knows what it’s like To feel these feelin’s Like I do And I blame you No one bites back as hard On their anger None…
Read moreBecause it’s always been a matter of trust. Isn’t trust like a building? Takes ages to build and seconds to be ruined to rubble. Sometimes I just don’t know where to stop, where to stop feeling and start thinking, because though your heart creates trust, your head sometimes can save it. Might take some time…
Read moreI never made promises lightly And there have been some that I’ve broken. Just chatted with a special person. A person that has made such great impact on my life. Because with her, I failed. I failed in every which way I could ever fail. And it was probably that failure that makes me love…
Read moreAround the world in 1297 days. I’m finally back home now, and it does feel like home. Although it is strange to be in a familiar place with so many unfamiliar things, I now realise that the longer I stayed away, the more I was distancing myself from the things I love and remember. Right…
Read moreA life yet to live. it’s getting spring here (amazing, huh?), yesterday we had around eight degrees. unbelievable i was just wearing a shirt and a light jacket. this is gonna be a good year, i can feel it. sanna is moving here. i got my job, my studies are doing okay, loads of plans,…
Read moreit could happen to anyone We have got a young trainee at the travel agency where I work every now and then. She didn’t come to work for couple of days and we started wondering, what is wrong with her. Doesn’t she want to? Is there something wrong? Then came the phone call: her parents…
Read moreand she walks along the edge of where the ocean meets the land. i keep forgetting about it, but life is beautiful. la vita é bella how the italians say. you just need to look closer and at the same time farther above all those little obstacles life holds for you. i’ve been so busy…
Read moreCalm I was so scared for awhile that it worried me. I didn’t know what road to take and how far to walk the path that I would choose. It is amazing how at ease someone can make you feel just by talking. The closest friends are those that you love unending and keep with…
Read moreincredibly beautifull Went down to Jyväsjärvi to skate. It seemed like half of the city was down there at the lake: families, friends, lovers, kids, old couples… everyone enjoying the beauty of a winter Sunday: snow, ice, sunshine, cold. Happy people surrounded by beauty. This is my home. This is where I come from.
Read more20.000 meilen über dem meer. 20.000 miles above the sea. feels like coming home. flying to finland once again march 17th. it’s weird, it’s been my home for nearly 1 1/2 years and now i am going back. back to where i had some of the lightest and darkest moments of my life. where doubts…
Read morealone brake my world hold me tight till I fall asleep don’t ask me why don’t tell me later do it now I ask missing you
Read moreNow is always the right time. I am becoming restless. Everything moves around me. My life is changing: finishing my studies, moving out of my flat, changing countries… actually I think even more things are changing inside of me. Nothing is like it used to be. It feels like I am in front of countless…
Read moreI see trees of green, red roses too. I woke up to the sunlight coming through the blinds. I quit hockey yesterday, it was too much. I lost the feeling of going out there and just playing, because it was fun. I totally lost it. I think I’ll go out skating on one of the…
Read moreTougher than the rest. Another goodbye, another one leaving. I went through Stefania’s photo collection today. She took about 200 pictures in 4 months here in Austria. And I? Sweden? Finland? The only memories I have (besides a rather small amount of pictures) are in my heart. How the summer of 2001 smelled, how the…
Read moreGod’s memo Just hold on, Don’t let go, You’re reaching so high, But it’s not the farthest you’ll go. You can touch the stars, Or the universe itself. But never be too scared, To ask me for help. I’m here for support, In everything you do. Just never give up, I’m walking beside you. I’ve…
Read morethank you It has been one of those days you don’t really want to have: first my car got broken, then my bike, no money in my pocket, there is a misunderstanding with phone bills; extra 80 to pay, -25 degrees outside, and so on. Not really days you are dreaming of. And of course…
Read moreI’ve been waiting. Silently my girlfriend Sanna has joined the ranks of mindwork.net. It’s now four of us (Patrick has decided to not post anything yet): Emily, Sanna, Shaun and me. I like the direction this is taking, from god creating lists to australia day. From silently flying away in your dreams to the thoughts…
Read moreAustralia Day. I love to travel and see new places and right now I am here in Dublin with both my sisters. I know that I should be just enjoying the moment, but I am restless. Itching to get home, to start my new life now that I feel that the old one is ended….
Read moreThe List I heard a story last night about a list that God has. The list contains two columns. On each side is a name and across from that name is the person they were created for. God rips this list in half and that separates the people. He then tears the list into tiny…
Read moreflying in the air I was flying the other night. It was incredibly feeling: so free, so happy, so full and complete. After all the longing and loneliness I have felt complete and being balanced. I have been able to feel love. And the most important thing was, that I wasn’t alone in my dream….
Read moreSag es laut. (Say it loud) I don’t think I am studying the right thing. How can I be a good business student if my head isn’t filled with numbers and figures but with words, sentences, stories. Being a joujournalist is my destination, I know that if something in mankind’s history really changed everything, it…
Read moreI can shine even in the darkness “I am thinking of you and Austria every single day. Getting ready, already anxious. In a way it’s coming back.” Sanna I believe.
Read moreAn unchained melody. Kelly’s gone. It’s only know that I’ve understood that the same old wheel started spinning again. Ultimately the wheel that drove me away form home, just so I hadn’t to be part of it. Some of the best folks I ever got to know where all the international students I’ve seen coming…
Read moreI miss you. Deeply. You know that things are different now, Since you came into my world. You’ve completely overtaken me, No longer a solitary girl. I feel things I’ve never known before, And I wonder how I survived. Being without something beautiful, All that you’ve given to my life. I know it may seem…
Read morethe universal sense of goodness I have been thinking the whole day, whether there is universal sense of goodness existing. Is there a common need in human nature to produce good and avoid bad things? Reading newspapers makes me really wonder. Violence, violence, violence. Every human being wants to be treated with dignity and equality….
Read moreAbout violence. Therefore, there are five different traits, that are dangerous in general. Those who are ready to die can be killed; those who are intent to living can be captured; those who are quick to anger can be shamed; those who are puritanical can be disgraced; those who love people can be troubled. -Sun…
Read moreAshes to ashes an dust to dust. Jan. 18th, grandad has been death for 6 yours now. Time passes. Season come and go. Before I went to Finland, I spent nearly a whole afternoon at his grave, just sat there on a bench in the weak warmth of a midwinter’s sun. It was porbably one…
Read moreSnow falling on cedars. Have you ever watched a single snowflake from the very first moment you could see it until it silently hits the ground? Must have been nearly an hour I spent at the window watching them over and over aqgain. It was probably one of the most peaceful moments in the last…
Read moreUnerfahrene bekommen Einsicht, Mägde und Knechte haben Visionen Ich überwache diesen Staat tagtäglich und offen gesprochen ich finde er versagt kläglich Denn er versteht nicht die Sprache, die wir hier sprechen Und alle paar Minuten bricht er frei nach seiner Wahl ein Versprechen. Vetuscht seine Kriegsverbrechen Verlangt von seinen Bürgern zu blechen Nur der Herr…
Read moreThe good people. It’s funny how you can lead your life, seemingly completely fulfilled, with everything you need then it takes just one person to come along and mess it all up. You thought you had it all together, that you didn’t need anyone more, then all of a sudden someone comes along who makes…
Read moreWow. I never knew it would hurt this much to be come back home. I’ve spent almost the past two weeks with someone that I connected with in such a way that I never knew was possible. Amazing. I’ve left so much of me behind. The colors of my world have all changed, everything looks…
Read morePerfection. I guess what I’m really searching for, is the perfect moment. “No… But I think a man cannot know his destiny. He can only do what he can, until his destiny is revealed.” I believe.
Read moreTruth in advertising. To simply live life should never be a guilty pleasure. – seen on a billboard at 51st and Broadway
Read morePerspective. Everyone else keeps asking me awkward questions like: -Are you excited to be going home? -Are you sad to leave? -Are you scared/excited about the new job? but all it took was a 6 year old to put it in perspective. No awkward questions, but rather all she wanted to know is will I…
Read moreThe long last goodbye. I like walking by myself but it can also be a dangerous business because sometimes it gives me too much time to think. Right now I have no choice. My bikes are at the shop, getting ready for shipping and my car is getting a final bit of work done before…
Read moreSilence is your deepest fear. 2004. Nearly three years since I got to know Sanna. I was 19 back then. Just started university, amazing how time goes by. Three years ago I had a feeling the world couldn’t be too small for me, now I know it can’t be large enough. There are choices to…
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