sometimes i wonder if i chose the right thing, professionally. i wonder if the stress, the long working hours and everything else that comes with being a journalist really pays off. and then i saw the letter, sitting openly in our secretary’s mailbox. it read: “dear mr. editor. thank you for your letter offering me…
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Tassie is a small place and today one of my students reminded me of how small when I realised that I have known her brother for over 10 years. Even better it reminded me of the sort of crazy schemes we used to come up with, and on occasion, even carry through, right to the…
Read moreadvice, fathers, supernatural people
i wonder in which fashion i will grow old. i hope it won’t be in a cynical way, something i have witnessed in people around me. it will not only take the joy in your life away but it will also harm others. people that do not deserve it. then i met this guy, in…
Read morefreedom
Time out on the running boards We’re running Through a world that lost its meaning Trying to find a way to love This running Ain’t no kind of freedom What I learned today from someone I had a drink together with: Freedom is not objective. It redefines itself every single day. Every moment. To me…
Read moreI want to feel, sunlight on my face
As of now I am sure there is a peaceful place somewhere out there. I started to feel it on the bike, my head emptying. I want to run I want to hide I want to tear down the walls That hold me inside I believe.
Read moreopen or closed
someone i know – and who decided to rather stay anonymous – just started her blog. it’s in german, it’s new. but it shows some incredible story-telling skills, a thoughtful style of observing things and a whole lot of heart in what she thinks. i believe.
Read morethe joy of real life dating
it really gave me some chuckles what georg wrote about online dating sites. so georg is looking for a girl, offline. my two cents: ladies, he really is one of the nicest guys around. i believe.
Read morethings i must remember
finally call the gym. stop spending money. start spending time. sleep every now and then. finish that paper. bach is for quiet moments. martini does not substitute dinner. smile. call grandma. wear sunscreen. i believe.
Read morebad karma on a 13th
“the moment i died was by far not the worst moment of that day. actually it barely made 6th place.” – what a way to start a book! i know it’s not a friday. actually it’s monday and i finished one of the funniest books i’ve read this year – bad karma. it’s not a…
Read moregreat days
i had this perfect day yesterday. i felt loved. i felt great. i left the office and felt that i am happy. i played hockey in the evening and then rejoined astrid and the others at georg’s barbecue party. we left at the right time, not too early, not too late. life sometimes can be…
Read morememories on a postcard
when i give, i give myself. i believe.
Read morei’m still learning
i met an amazing person this weekend, emanuel rego, one of the winningiest beach-volleyball players in the history of sports. i asked him for an interview after he had battled through and won the grand slam tournament in klagenfurt. he turned out not only to be a good interview partner, but an insight- and thoughtful…
Read moreWhere are you?
And it’s not a cry you can hear at night it’s not somebody who’s seen the light it’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah I believe.
Read moresomewhere beyond the sea
i went diving for the first time in my life today. at first it was scary, as the human mind is not ready to understand that you can actually breathe while below the surface. once your head tells you actually can, there is no limit. in a split of a second you start understanding that…
Read moreyouth, unfitting
the lake07 festival were kettcar appeared a couple of nights ago folded right after that evening’s last chords were played, a million euro in debts which sparked a public discussion about what kind of cultural events should be funded by the carinthian government. now gerhard dörfler, member of the right-wing former austrian freedom party (now…
Read morei am a mac
it’s one of those headlines that makes me smile. macosx outsold vista this year by a market share of 6 percent compared to vistas 4,5 percent says analyst Net Applications. quality prevails. I believe.
Read moremoney left to burn
kettcar was…stunning, crazy, great. the played in front of an audience of about 200 but it seemed to be the gig of their life – playing balu as their every-time close, then coming back on stage announcing that “this is the first time for us ever to play balu and then still come back and…
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it’s been some time since axel and me went to the kettcar concert in vienna. back then we were friends already. today he’s one of the few people i really trust all-in, all-out besides astrid and my family. as i mentioned already it’s been some time since the last kettcar concert. time for a refresh….
Read moreexpensive but entertaining encounters
i went to a press conference today, running just a little late (as always). i quickly parked my car and ran off. on coming back i noticed the ticket i had on my windshield: 20 euro, no kidding. i did another interview in the afternoon, parked my car, got a parking ticket and darted off….
Read moreIsabella Frances
8.37pm – 18 July 2007, 2.95 kg. We haven’t met yet, but I’m sure you’re perfect.
Read morehome
a couple of days ago i told someone about my life, what i had done so far, what i still wanted to do (the list being a lot longer than that of my accomplishments) – and about home, carinthia, austria. yesterday right after work we drove to the lake and swam across the little bay…
Read morethe times are a-changing
can you force change? can i force change? can i be made to force change? i thought i could change things by just doing what i can do best: write. but it’s wake-up time now. come writers and critics who prophesize with your pen… i believe.
Read moreand on my way out
ireland. it rained and dried up and then it rained again. and still we enjoyed it, its people, mark (the cab driver), kilmore quay, oysters, long country roads, talk-only radio stations, left-side driving and the undeniable guiness. thank you ireland, we’ll be back. i believe.
Read moreireland, notes of a trip
the first we got of dublin was a squeaky voice announcing that on leaving the plane we should hold onto something. wind around 90 miles outside, rain, 12 degrees. we left austria at around 26 degrees. then the bus to the radisson sas was more than hard to find, but we eventually got on, arrived,…
Read morecouchsurfers, holidays
some time ago, i wrote an article about couchsurfing. quite honestly i checked the topic, asked some people who had done in, wrote it down and forgot about it again. until i got this email last week “request to surf your couch”. first thought if you take from the community (a good story) you better…
Read moreWhen the rich wage war
My brother had a book he would hold with pride A little red cover with a broken spine On the back, he hand-wrote a quote inside When the rich wage war it’s the poor who die I believe.
Read moreMinutes to midnight
Martina, Eric’s wife, asked me about Finland yesterday back at the Cricket ground. And as much as I wish I could hold onto them, the memories start to fade away. I start to forget names, places. But the feelings stay. The dark winter months, the minutes leading up to midnight when the snow would cover…
Read moreimpossible is nothing
i sometimes tend to forget, who i am, what i can do and how far this has taken me. Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they’ve been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not…
Read moreoh reader where are thou?
this is really working inside me: sometimes i get this feeling that more and more we journalists stop thinking about our readers. you out there. yes you. how many times have i heard the sentences “we have to do this, we have to do that”. says who? did somebody step out of the office and…
Read moreORF funnies
The Austrian Broadcasting Coperation’s (ORF) website has gained a reputation for making funny mistakes. But this one beats them all. After federal elections in Belgium the ORF titled “Verheugen acknowledges defeat”. Then the ORF continues with liberal Guy Verhofstadt (prime minister) explaining why and how the defeat came to be. Why Germany’s Günther Verheugen, vice-president…
Read moreon top of the rain
i ran through the cold rain to the car, leaving the party earlier than i thought i would. years ago, i wouldn’t miss a party. i thought i’d miss something by not being everywhere. i was wrong. the things you really shouldn’t miss can’t be found in parties. it’s out there somewhere in the cold…
Read morethe project
it’s the ties that bind. it’s life as a house or in our case – life as a boat. not that refurbishing a boat together with lukas and dad was pure joy. but it was a project, our project. life as a boat. i believe.
Read moreDen stille pige
there are two things I inherited from my grandfather: the ability to hardly ever let my inner self leak through to the outside and love for classical music. there’s a rythm in my life that follows corelli’s adagio. i believe.
Read moregoing home (almost)
tanzenberg, where i did my eight years of high school, has never left me. not that i absolutely loved school (hands up, who did?) – but i guess people who went there, always feel a little special. it’s a little remote, a little different, smaller, more family-like. indeed it somestimes felt that we up on…
Read moreit’s about…
It’s about being able to fly, It’s about dying nine times. I know exactly into how much detail I can go, when I am at my worst. But some days are just about..being able to fly. I believe.
Read moreno space to rent in this town
well i moved over to another department in the newspaper – i blogged about it earlier. either i forgot what it means to really fight for your ideas or then i am running on empty this time. i know myself, i know how (over-) ambitious i can be and how personal i take rejections of…
Read moreon sleepless roads the sleepless go
there’s something to mornings, an unsaid promise that leaves the night behind. there are days when i lie in bed, fully awake though it’s 4am. today is one of these days. my thoughts jumped and stopped somewhere in finland. i thought about life there, about the people i met and how so few of them…
Read morealone in the night
sitting by myself in the living room. had sushi with astrid – just a normal evening. ut then again i figured how much i have changed in the last 11 months, how much i (and my life) have changed by astrid being in it. how much this place has changed. it’s those little things that…
Read moreend of the cuba crisis
oh sweet joy of public pressure. the austrian bank bawag i blogged about earlier fired up their thrust reversers. after what the bawag calls “a considerable amount of public discussion” the bank decided to take back it’s pre-cerberus-aquisition decision to close down any accounts by cubans or cuban-born customers. wow what a pr-desaster. i believe.
Read moreon round pegs and square holes
whenever i meet a new group of people in my life (such as working colleagues in a new department) – all my self-confidence seems to vaporize in a split second. you try to be nice, but not too nice, you try to come up with new ideas but not be a smart-ass, you try to…
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